Que Pasa Mija!

Que Pasa Mija!

Saturday, December 13, 2014

offering to the sacred flame beautiful words and phrases

  1. Hip, Hip Hooray No Spam here! Say Goos bye @ New Age Of Activism.com Until Further Notice  2014. and,  Say Happy New Year because We are living for loves@ New Age Of Activism.com Okay Bye All My Best, 2015!






    Bee Like yeah!
    We are getting healthy!




    And Remembee Just Say No to drugs~

    Enseñame y Brillaras Muchisimo Mas Que Yo! Reverence for All Life Above All Else!

    Liberty America the Beautiful Indivisible Beauty my stars and stripes in my pursuit of freedom and happiness as I wonder the by roads of pain. I set my feet upon the path of joy and peace the spirit of god protects my mind from any forces of fear that may divert my thinking! Best ever, My Terrific, Wonderful, Great! It has been decided that this earth is not fit to raise my unborn child amongst the grossness of the human race! continuamos Reconociendo Excelencia en el año 2015! Wow @Newageofactivism.com Okay bye All My Best! We are simply awesome@Oh, Boy, Oh Boy! We have a face for radio!  como dicen los gringitos! Xtell groovy! finalmente algo que podemos leer! We are live! Cada dia me encuentro mejor la vida me ama incondicionalmente como soy, yo tambien soy muy importante para la vida, al cabo de un tiempo no muy lejano la mejoria se produce realmente y nos encontraremos mucho mejor y mas saludables! y en un momento todas mis acciones, emociones, pensamientos que yo eh creado durante toda mi vida tienen sentido, y ya no existe ningun tipo de dolor y sufrimiento o el miedo a dios a,  y es asi, y asi es.

    Goddess grant me the serenity to embrace myself completely in every moment
    the Courage to love myself more, No matter, what I do, say, feel, smell, hear, see, taste, or think
    and the Wisdom to  understand myself and the Realization to know That I am That I am That I am  enlightened rightnow.  and that there is no place, people, or things that can ever separate me from the infinite harmony, compassion, and  Love of you. Living One Moment at a time, enjoying One Moment At a time. I am absolutely happy@ My Sacred heart

    And So it Is...

     El año 2014 al pesar del pesar mi lastima y que la necesidad nunca a sido buena para los negocios el año 2014  fue indudablemente el año mas lindo y dichososo de todos los años y el año 2015 es el super mas mejor, and super duper awesomeness for sures and everythins is goins to works out! hemos aprendido muchisimo juntos, cada vez nos volvemos mas cultos y respetables y continuamos revaluando el proposito de nuestra vida. We concord that nos  hemos mantenido con muy buena salud n'est pas, hemos comido muy bien los organiz and non organix food a la carte, a la delicious  bon apetite Infinite Yum! hemos comido frijolitos negros con arroz blanco, sopa de alberjas y lentejitas, ensaladita de repollito con rabanos, tomatillo, apio, con jugo de lemon y aceite de oliva, arroz con leche,  preparados por nuestra hermosa eh lindisima que mi virgensita la proteja a ya sabes a quien! mi divina madre pinchada es obvio que comes tus comidas con preservatidos porque si estas bien preservada, y lindisima! tambien hemos comido pure de papa con mantequilla, y papas enteras con sal y sin sal, y hasta probamos el pure de papa con mayonesa y claro que solo fue un poquito porque la mayonesa es echa con huevos. Ubicate, ubicate! tambien hemos probado sus sopas nutritivas eh instantaneous de noodles y su rico arroz con vegetales licuados ya tanto como el perejil, la calabaza, la espinaca, ajo, tomate, y hoy comimos vegetales orneados brocoli, culiflor, apio, pimenton amarillo, y cebolla, echa por la culona ya sabes quien, que entre mas viejo se volvio mas lindo en una forma masculina, eh casi independiente, y si, ay, una, esperanza para que la culona se vuelva straight! straight digo que se va a casar con una linda mujer que loa quiera y pos que ya deje sus mamadas con maricas que no sirven pa culo pero en fin nadie va a perder sueño cause we are very gay friendly anywas.  A tus ordenes, la nalgona continua siendo mal hablado y mal pensado con buen corazon, hemos disfrutado el delicioso sabor del aguacate, el bien nutritivo broccoli, y italian squash a la vez no podimos mentir, si hemos probado galletas de saltines, waffers, oat meal cookies,  muffins, croissants, banana bread, y unos pedazos de chocolatines, y hasta unos yummy pedazos de walnut pie and organiz apple pie brought over by la chicanera culona y yums y gracias por la natilla, los dos burritos de frijoles rojos y arroz con extra cebollita, bananas. y hasta comimos la maza de un tamal y, le dimos el puerco y el pollo, a los dos peludos lover birds,  tambien comimos otras cosas saludables, et gracias a la gordita con llantitas que sabe contar numeros y sabe de manejamiento y por ser una linda madre como tu,  for the cacao beans, and her generous and amazing gift of tes de manzanilla y menta, from you know where, et gracias  por el chubby pajarito grosero por ser adulta y  responsable y ensañarme hacer mas fuerte y mas, y mas, y mas, y mas, y mas, por el you know what ssss pio pio! et gracias por my white clothes et gracias al guapo dientes de pastuso for the birthday cake et gracias, et gracias. Hemos disfrutado de saludables assortment of teas and hot chocolate, agua con lemon. Nos invitaron a comer y yo ordene un jugo de orchata, un plato de yuca frita,  con ensalada de aguacate y tomate fui tres veces a el baño a orinar y me lave las manos, y volvi a la mesa y me reintegre al grupo y continue comiendo chips and salsa junto con los otros super yummy yums. El señor "A" estaba sentado al frente mio y ordeno caldo de res con tres cervezas estranjeras de Holanda.  El señor "B" se acomodo al lado de señor "A" y el ordeno un jugo de ensalada y una sopa de mariscos al igual que la señora "C"  ella se sento al lado mio y ordeno jugo de lulo y otra  sopa de mariscos ! a todos nosotros nos sirvieron tortillas de maiz - en Colombia  este tipo de tortilla se les conocen como arepas, aqui en este pais se le llaman corn cakes claro que cuando algunas personas preparan la masa para las arepas utilizan  queso molido y el tamaño de las arepas es  un poco mas cruezo que el de las tortillas. Los Colombianos no comen las arepas tan amenudo con sus comidas tradicionales como los Mexicanos comen las tortillas. Yo personalmente no tengo preferencia a ningun tipo de corn cake y no favoro a una tortilla o a una arepa pero si se que ciertas personas utilizan diferentes masas en algunas partes del mundo para preparar estos corn cakes afamados como staple foods (alimentos de primera necesidad) en America Central y Sur America. la arepa suele ser preparada con una harina de maiz precosinda y no se debe de confundir con la maza harina (dough flour). La harina de maiz precocinada la puedes encontrar en tiendas de alimentos especializados o en mercados latinos. Después de preparar la masa puedes asarlas, hornearlas, fritarlas, rellenarlas con queso, frijol o carne.  Las tortillas de maiz son echas con maiz nixtamalizado. dicen que las arepas cuestan mas  que las tortillas aqui en Los Estados Unidos, y realmente no se el porque las arepas valen mas que las tortillas ni me importa.  


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    Todos los mamíferos muestran señas que comunican a otros sobre la posición social. Dicen que el amor reduce las ansias por dominio social y quita los impulsos de querer afirmar nuestro poder sobre los demás cuando dedicamos mas tiempo de calidad con una mismao.  Sueño no me ha faltado y si eh podido dormir muy bien, mis sueños (dreams) han sido tranquilos, no muy interesantes, y si me siento muy afortunada de poder dormir bien y con ropa puesta, no duermo desnuda  porque nadie sabe cuando unao tiene que salir pitada de donde uno vive en esta tierra,  especialmente con tantos cambios que están pasando.  Estas ultimas semanas la  eh pasado con muy buena compañía y eh  reposado bastante, y entiendo profundamente que ya todo en mi vida a cambiado, y que si alguien me hubiera dicho los eventos que se iban a desarrollar en mi vida después de los 37años de bagar en Washington, D.C,  Maryland, Virginia, New York, New Mexico, Arizona, Las Vegas, Tijuana, Mexico,  Los Angeles, California y alguna que otra vez Big Bear y Pasadena. Si alguien me hubiera dicho lo que me iba a suceder, no se lo hubiera creído! ¿Como? ¿Yo? ¿Que? 


    In my heart, I accept my perfect Being.
    I accept that the joy that I have intended is already in my life.
    I accept that love I have prayed for is already within me.
    I accept that the peace I have asked for is already my reality.
    I accept that the abundance I have sought already fills my life.
    In my truth, I accept my perfect Being.
    I take responsibility for my own creations,
    And all things that are within my life.
    I acknowledge the power of Spirit that is within me,
    And know that all things are as they should be.
    In my wisdom, I accept my perfect Being.
    My lessons have been carefully chosen by my Self,
    And now I walk through them in full experience.
    My path takes me on a sacred journey with divine purpose.
    My experiences become part of All That Is.
    In my knowingness, I accept my perfect Being.
    In this moment, I sit in my golden chair
    And know that I Am an angel of light.
    I look upon the golden tray - the gift of Spirit -
    And know that all of my desires already have been fufilled.
    In love for my Self, I accept my perfect Being.
    I cast no judgment or burdens upon my Self.
    I accept that everything in my past was given in love.
    I accept that everything in this moment comes from love.
    I accept that everything in my future will result in greater lo
    In my Being, I accept my perfection
    @My Sacred Heart 
    And So It Is

      Chocha blanca C'est La Vie C'ext La Vie...O! Chocha Mona Et Ces't La Vie, C'est La Vie... O!  Lei por ahi que la relaciones son laboratorios para el espíritu santo. Una amiga mía vino la otra noche a visitarme, la conozco desde high school cuando éramos mas pollitas ella y yo experimentamos lo que se sentía tocar los bustos y también la vagina de otra mujer. Yo le toque sus bustos y le di  picos a sus pezones, le di besos a su vagina, y le lambí sus labios vaginales, y si atestiguo que su vagina sabia un poquito a miados pero no me molesto. Ella me toco mis bustos, y me dio piquitos en los pezones también, ella me toco mi vagina, y me lambió mi vagina con su lengua y me supongo que mi vagina sabia a miados al  igual que la vagina de ella. La verdad es que ninguna de las dos sabíamos lo que hacíamos las pocas veces que intentamos tener sexo juntas,  pero si me acuerdo que nos reíamos mucho. No me da pena decir que a  ella, yo no la atraía físicamente, porque yo era muy gorda,  nunca me preocupe como me vestía nor did I care if I looked good or not, y ella si me gustaba físicamente porque ella si le importaba that she looked good, and she never liked to eat food so she was really skinny. She perceived herself as looking  awkward when she wore glasses so  she chose to wear contact lenses instead. Nunca supe tener sexo con otra persona, hombre o mujer. Nunca entendi lo que era el sexo y porque tener sexo con otra persona es un acto sacrado, al a edad de 37años comense a entender lo que era la energía kundalini y atravez de todo lo que lei me di cuenta que muchas personas utilizan diferentes nombres al hablar de la energía Kundalini (Awakening, Romantic Journey,  El Despertar,  serpent power, mystic power, primordial energy, Shekinah, Candali/Tummo, the fire of the Pentacost that illuminated the apostles, ShaktiPa/Shakti, Holy Spirit, Virgin Mary, Tara, Tao, Allah. Christ Consciousness..)  y cada persona tiene su propia experiencia de como an podido despertar la energía Kundalini en su cuerpo y que pasa cuando la  energía Kundalini esta despierta en su cuerpo. y si me di cuenta que habia mucha información que puede ser alarmante, y que le puede causar a una miedo cuando se habla del despertar de la kundalini energy.  Especialmente cuando se habla de los síntomas físicos, y dolores que si se pueden comparar como Los de la Ebola Virus,  la gripe, Alzeiheimers, y los cambios físicos, metales, emocionales, que ocurren cuando la Kundalini energy se despierta en nuestro cuerpo, please stay calm.
     En los siguientes versos yo decidi utilizar la palabra dios en mi pasado no me gustaba utilizar la palabra "dios" porque antes de que mi kundalini energy estaba despierta en mi cuerpo la palabra dios no tenia ningún significado para mi. La mayor parte de mi vida, yo me programe a no ser digna de recibir el amor de dios, y me programe a buscar a dios afuera de mi y preferí solo  escuchar, y leer las opiniones formuladas por otras personas que conocían a dios mejor que yo, y no me sentí  inspirada a tener un contacto consiente con dios  porque las personas que yo conocí que hablaban de dios utilizaban  la palabra "dios" en vano,  o como un juego del cual yo no me acuerdo aver participado o contribuido con la creación de su  reglas y regulaciones. y cada vez, que intente de ser ejemplar y ser perfecta en el nombre de dios, mientras que participe en la sociedad, atravez de los trabajo que hice, las amistades que tuve, las obras de caridad que comparti con otros, convivencias con extraños,   y  las relaciones intimas que disfrute,  me vi caer y asotarme contra el piso cada vez que me la pique de puritana, correcta,  y buen discípulo con buenas intenciones de salvar al todo el mundo. Ahora, cuando utilizo la palabra dios a,  mi corazón vibra de felicidad,  alegría y inspiración porque aunque solo sea una palabra la palabra dios me parase muy bonita y la estimo muchísimo en estos momentos que puedo expresarme como un ser humano en el cuerpo de una mujer y que tengo el derecho de expresarme con palabras. Yo estoy muy dichosa de tener the confidence to know that god exists and it is absolutely beautiful and it has no name and that I am free to love a healthy god and not be punished for it.
     Afortunadamente para mi yo no soy la única mujer que esta pasando por esta linda experiencia del despertar de la energía kundalini, Cuando me di cuenta que la energía kundalini estaba despertando en mi cuerpo sentí un gran desmadre dentro y fuera de mi, yo no sabia que lo que me estaba pasando era relacionado con mi despertar, aunque habia comenzado a practicar el budismo desde el 2002, nadie en la secta Budista a la cual yo pertenecía me hablo de la kundalini energy y la glándula pineal y lo que causa el sonido en nuestro cuerpo cuando cantamos mantras.  Unas de las cosas que a mi me gusto mucho de la practica de budismo era cantar mantras y estudiar sobre el budismo, y discutir puntos de vista de sermones budistas que yo leía o leímos en un grupo y compartir lo que aprendía con personas que no son budistas,  pero ni la mantra, el estudio, o los sermones  tenia tanto sentido como ahora que mi kundalini energy esta despierta en mi cuerpo. yo estoy muy agradecida con todas las personas budistas que me entrenaron por 7 años a ser consistente con la practica de cantar mantras en la mañana y en las noches, sola y en un grupo. Estoy muy agradecida con  el apoyo que recibí de todas la personas budistas que practican un servicio desinteresado, y que me invitaron a sus casas, y me dieron de comer, yummy food y cantaron mantras conmigo cada año. Me da mucha tranquilidad decir que si existen seres humanos en esta linda tierra que eligen  crear una vida de paz y armonía eh igualdad y ya sabeos quienes sois.  
    Era el invierno del 2011 cuando recién empece a tener los síntomas de kundalini energy sentí como si alguien me estaba observándo, escuchando, sintiendo, percibiendo lo que yo pensaba  y que me conocía de una forma muy profunda que jamas ninguna persona en esta vida me a llegado a conocer, ni mi propia abuela que me crío de ñiña que en paz descanse , mi tía , mi papa, o, mi madre me llegaron a conocer de esta forma. Me sentí tan especial eh interesante al sentirme bien observada que yo pense que alguien me iba adoptar, pero no fue así, me supongo que no fui adoptada porque soy hispana, mujer, y tenia 37años en ese entonces.  lo que yo estaba percibiendo como  si "alguien"  me estaba observando desde afuera de mi, realmente era yo misma abservandome desde adentro de mi ser, Al notar esto me sentí muy consciente de mi misma, y sentí mucha vergüenza, porque lo que ese "alguien" que yo percibía sabia el mas mínimo detalle de mi persona,  cuando me sacaba una espinilla, cuando me sacaba los mocos, cuando hago popo, cuando orino, y ese "alguien" conoce todo lo que pienso al estar consiente de esto, esa realización me brindo paz, y armonía después de que comenze a saber que lo que me estaba pasando era que mi energía kundalini estaba despertando en mi cuerpo. Ahora ya me siento mas cómoda en mi propio cuerpo. Yo se sin duda alguna que estoy totalmente desnuda ante dios y que este beautiful healthy god loves me just the way I am with all my imperfections.
    repito otravez soy afortunada de no ser la única mujer que tiene la energía kundalini despierta.  por ahora me siento única, y no solamente soy importante para la vida, pero también se que mi vida cuenta para algo, y me da mucha felicidad al saber que de alguna  forma o otra comparto esta hermosisima experiencia con muchos seres humanos en todos los países de esta linda tierra,  and I am absolutely happy to be of service on this beautiful radiant healthy earth. Yo se que puedo vivir sin comer, yo se que puedo vivir sin tomar líquidos, y estoy  consciente que en estos momentos mi cuerpo necesita aire.  Y es asi, y Asi Es... 
     I understand, that is pivotal that I am clear and truthful with all of my relationships.  I am aware that I am not prisoner of my desires, I am aware that I am not prisoner on this earth.
     I am aware that this earth is not a concentration camp.
      Al respecto de los síntomas de la Super Wonderful  kundalini energy, no me puedo quejar de nada porque en fin ya estaba acostumbrada a sentir dolores y sentirme enferma, me explico, antes de mi despertar de kundalini me daba dolor de cabeza después de tomar varios tragos de liquor, especialmente si eran mezclados con jugos y si tomaba vino, y cerveza, y fumaba muchos cigarrillos.  yo se lo que es sentir un buen guayabo que lo deja a una en cama por varios dias, vomitando, y con mareos.  para mi este despertar es alegría! dicen que el "joy"  "La alegría es lo que nos pasa cuando nos permitimos reconocer lo bueno que son las cosas realmente" yo reconozco que el despertar de la energía kundalini en mi cuerpo es algo saludable, lindisimo, increíble y sacrado, y cuando lo explico de esta manera la pocas personas a las que le eh comentado de esta experiencia,  no entienden, o se excitan sexualmente, o simplemente no les importa, y estoy consiente el porque muchas persona buscan la guía de una buena maestra o maestro, guru o un swami.  la experiencia del despertar de la kundalini energy  se puede percibir como muy intensa, y no cae mal tener un apoyo positivo de alguien que sea buena honda. Estoy consciente el porque muchas personas deciden cobrar dinero para enseñar sobre la energia kundalini, en mi opinion, toda la información, y  buenas obras de caridad que se dan o se ofrecen gratis en esta cultura suelen no ser apreciadas, como la información que se cobra con dinero. suspiro  al saber que hay personas, grupos y organizaciones que dan un respaldo gratis para muchas  personas que están despertando en estos momentos, porque o si no muchos de nosotros estubieramos jodidos, no solamente sufriendo de sensaciones extrañas en el cuerpo, pero también bombardeados con pura negatividad, Oh, No! el coco! el coco! ya biene el coco, me cago del meowdow! supersticiones,  humillaciones,  y groserías al respecto de esta condición. excuse my condition I have fallen in love with god y me muero chao de felicidad y alegría!
     yo personalmente puedo decir que mi vida, ya jamas va a volver hacer la misma. No, pienso en retroceder y querer ser la misma persona que yo era antes de mi despertar porque aunque hay veces que me cago del miedo y de la inseguridad al enfrentar una realidad que es programada en el materialismo,  la realidad en la cual no todo el mundo tiene su enerjia de kundalini despierto en su cuerpo, la realidad que si hay muchas personas en este mundo, en estos momentos  que tienen su energia kundalini despierto y eligen competir for fame and fortune, y  crear una forma de vida materialista basada en el dinero, y el poder mental . La realidad  que ay muchas persona que tienen la energy kundalini despierta y tienen casual sexual encounters, eh utilizan drogas y alcohol y apoyan y promueben este estilo de vida para otras personas,  la realidad en la cual todo el mundo esta acostumbrado a vivir in survival mode, and to live under a lot of stress and to continue to create more stress for themselves and others. La realidad que entre mas inteligente quiera yo aparentar que soy, reconozco que soy boba con baba de panocha, I am aware that I am blessed. I am aware that I am a fortune baby. I am aware that I am very sensitive rightnow. I am aware that I am in a vulnerable state of being right now. I am aware that I am strong. I am aware that my life makes more sense today, then it ever did before.  I am aware that I have chosen my life as it is today.  I am aware that the spirit of truth is my guide in my journey to heaven and my source of freedom and inspiration.  In my opinion,  all the promises have come true in my life, and I live my life one moment at a time. I have no future plans for myself. I surrender completely to the care of god. 



    A los 40años me di cuenta que la energía kundalini era lo mismo que el espíritu santo, y me siento muy contenta de poder decir que aunque mi vida a cambiado de una forma radical, y ya eh renunciado completamente al materialismo me siento en paz and super very excited to know that my life will continue to evolve even after I leave this human body, and that I will not be returning to this earth plane, and I am appreciative to know that everything around me is priceless, and that this beautiful Tierra hermosisima EA is alive and very healthy and it will continue to evolve just like I am. And So It Is

     “Dios, me ofrezco a Ti para que obres en mí y hagas conmigo Tu voluntad. Líbrame de mi propio encadenamiento para que pueda cumplir mejor con Tu voluntad. Maravilloso divino medico  ayudame a convertir todo veneno en mi sanción y mi cura. Líbrame de mis dificultades y que la victoria sobre ellas sea el testimonio para aquellos a quien yo ayude con Tu Poder, bondad, dulzura, compassion, autenticidad, integridad, libertad,  alegría,  pureza, y  Tu Amor infinito Y Es Asi Y Asi Sea

     En estos momentos estoy entendiendo como la kundalini energy se relaciona con mi sexualidad, y con mi salud, por eso tres años atrás  decidí no volver a tener sexo con nadie, mujer o hombre. En el verano del 2011 tuve dos relaciones sexuales el primero encuentro sexual fue con una negra gorda, culona y tetona. El segundo encuentro sexual fue con un muchacho de Rusia que era marijuanero y tuve mucha suerte que no me robo nada de la casa cuando lo deje solo, y si hubo penetración por ambos lados cuando hicimos el acto sexual quiero añadir que el acto sexual entre el Ruso y yo no fue Tantric practice or Tantra practice yo no estudie estas formas de tener relaciones intimas con otra persona  o como le llaman "tools of expansión".  ese día fue el único día que tuve sexo con este man,  el man y yo estábamos bajo la influencia de vodka y marijuana el acto fue brusco rápido y no significo nada ni para mi ni para el.  Ese mismo día en la tardecita conocí a su linda novia Rusia cuando la trajo a mi casa, ellos hicieron el amor en el cuarto de el. Yo no participe en actos sexuales con ambos y después de ese día ya no tuve mas sex con el, Una semana después conocí a la mama del Ruso y ella se lo llevo de la casa a una clínica de rehabilitación y aunque se fue sin pagar su porcion de la renta su mama me dijo que yo me podia quedar con el eighth de marijuana que su hijo dejo en mi mesa. Antes del 2011 tuve sexo con solo una mujer judía que es budista y muy buena persona esto ocurrió entre el año 2008 y 2009 estos son las últimos relaciones sexuales mas recientes antes de estos estaba completamente celibate desde el 2005. Volvi a tener sexo en 2011. Mi ultimo encuentro sexual fue Agosto del 2011 con el  muchacho Ruso que es marijuanero y alcohólico, Yo  tome mi ultimo trago de alcohol en agosto del 2011, y en enero del 2012 decidí no volver a fumar cigarrillos, decidí no  fumar marijuana, y no tomar ningún tipo de droga ni siquiera una aspirina para el dolor de cólicos cuando tengo la menstruación.  Quiero confesar que mi  recaída al alcohol y las drogas fue en el verano del 2010, antes de que el gay pride de West Hollywood empesara y yo decidí a volver a tomar alcohol, fumar cigarrillos, y fumar marijuana, y aspire atravez de la nariz varios pases de cocaína en dos fiestas privadas, y en esas fiesta habian testigos y ya sabeos quien sois.  Mi recaída al alcohol y drogas empezo cuando yo decide de alejarme de dios a, al parar de tener un contacto consciente con dios atraves de mis oraciones diarias que incluyen mantras. Cuando yo me aleje de dios  mi vida perdió su fundación eh estabilidad. Mi recaída fue un acto conciente porque decidí formar mi circulo social con personas que toman alcohol y drogas, y que  tienen buenos trabajos, y no tienen ningún problema de ser responsables de pagar una renta o sus biles a tiempo, y les gusta divertisen  haciendo lo que quieren y esto incluye tomar muchísimo alcohol y hacer drogas.  Mi recaída al alcohol y drogas en ese entonces me ayudo a  ser mas sociable y conocer mas borrachos y drogadictos que tienen muchos dinero y palancas con contactos. 
    Mi recaida al alcohol y drogas en ese entonces me ayudo a olvidar, que no tenia trabajo estable, Mi recaida al alcohol y drogas me ayudo a olvidar una relación que tuve con una mujer que estaba casada con un maricon con dinero.  Mi recaída al alcohol y drogas  me ayudo a olvidar a mi hermano que es alcolico y violento. Mi recaída al alcohol y drogas me ayudo a olvidar la orden de protección que saque en Maryland, en el invierno del 2010  encontra de mi propio hermano, para defenderme a mi misma, y a mi madre que tenia una rodilla rota y estaba incapacitada.  Mi recaída al alcohol y drogas me ayudo a olvidar que mi mama es alcolica, y es totalmente incurable de su enfermedad de alcoholismo al igual que mi hermano, y ya se que aburro con este tema, y reconozco que esta es la vida que elegí, y que yo me busque. yo decidí eligir una vida dificil y estas memorias que yo eh  creado  para aprender sobre esto eh evolucionar mas el gene pool son un poco sensibles para mi porque por ahora soy clasificada como mujer, soy un ser humano, tengo sentimientos y emociones, y sufro de  muchas condiciones  pero ya no necesito el alcohol y las drogas para olvidarme de todo...
    y ser absolutamente feliz.
    En el otoño del 2011 alrededor de Septiembre pare de tomar alcohol, y continue fumando Marijuana legalmente con una Medical Marijuana Card que yo compre con mi propio nombre, y mi drivers licence number en Los Angeles, California.  Quiero agregar que durante ese otoño  decidí adoptar un perro, y una buenísima amiga que era una compañera de Sunday Morning hikes  me llevo a la perrera de Burbank, y ahi vi a un lindisimo perro que decidió vivir conmigo por un año. La adoptada  de mi perrito cambio mi vida por completa y me ayudo a no asociarme mas con todos los drogadictos y alcohólicos que viven en West Hollywood, California  que eran muy divertidos para compañía de parranda, Bug spray! bug spray bee like yeah! répéter apre mois bug spray! bug spray be like yeah nasty fagoots! Be like glad! And So It Is
     La presencia de mi perro me dio animo de rentar una casa con un solar donde mi perrito pudiera correr al cabo de muy poco tiempo  me di cuenta que tener un perro como una mascota no es fácil, y requiere  mucha responsabilidad, y bastante paciencia. Cuando yo sacaba a mi perro a caminar me jalaba a todas partes, por mas bien decir, el era el que me sacaba a caminar, y cuando veia a los otros perros se enloquecía porque le fascinaba jugar con ellos pero mi perro era grande entonces asustaba a los demás. Mi perro era divino y juntos escalamos el parque de Griffith Park en muchas ocasiones.  El era muy ágil y fuerte y le fascinaba escalar las rocas, y perseguir a los  coyotes que viven en ese lindisimo parque. Yo se y reconozco que aunque la  relación entre mi perro y yo  fue solo por un año y el decidió decirme Okay Bye All My Best! Okay All My Best! Okay Bye All My Best! yo estoy muy agradecida con mi perro porque me ayudo a cambiar mi vida por completo y murió  siendo totalmente libre,  feliz y estaba muy alentando y no le importo dejarme a mi sola.  Y confienzo que después de la muerte de mi perro ya jamas tendré otra mascota, y  también confienzo que a mi si me gusta la "ñ" de ñoña y no me importo recoger su caca o por decir ñoña  y limpiarle sus miados, pero, No lo vuelvo hacer! pero si el lugar en donde yo estoy visitando  tienen perros y veo la ñoña de perro no me gusta ignorarla,  a huevas que si recojo la ñoña!  y la levanto con mucho gusto aunque me sienta incomoda al recojerla especialmente si la ñoña es churreteada porque yo si soy consiente que la ñoña ya sea de perro o de un ser humano  atrae a las moscas , y otros tipos de insectos que les gusta comer, y oler ñoña.  Y  no es que me las pique de ser una mujer que es muy limpia, sinceramente  a mi no me gusta ver la ñoña de perros en el solar, sala o  cocina.  y mucho menos me gusta pararme encima de toda esa ñoña ya sea dura o floja, y no es porque yo sea escrupulosa o que me define como una vieja meticulosa o OCD en mi opinión  la mierda  "ñoña" si tiene un olor especial, aunque si confieso que la mierda de un ser humano huele mas fuerte y mas repudiante que la ñoña de un perro.  Cuando recién me movi a la casa comenze a fumar Marijuana casi a diario desde que compre mi medical marijuana card , y pare de fumar marijuana  en el invierno de Enero 2012. Estoy completamente sobria de alcohol y drogas desde ese entonces y como decia...




    Hace trece años atrás en el 2002, note que aunque no tomaba alcohol a diario ya no quería tomar mas alcohol, pero todo mi circulo social yo lo cree alrededor del alcohol, y, yo no podia parar de tomar sola.  Cuando le comente a una amiga que quería saber lo que era Alcolicos Anonimos AA ella me miro como si tuviera dos cabezas puestas, en ese entonces estaba estudiando, y trabajaba en un restaurante,  y siempre pagaba todos mis biles a tiempo, me imagino que mi buena amiga se supuso que todo en mi vida estaba bien porque, yo era responsable con mi vida en ese sentido, y nunca eh tenido ningún problema con ninguna persona, y nunca me deleite al tratar mal a las personas ya tanto como amigos o compañeros de trabajo, siempre eh sabido respetar a los demás, No me da placer hacerle daño a nadie a propósito, me gusta ser considerada con los sentimientos de los demás. pero si confienzo que tengo muy poco tolerancia a la mentira, porque la mentira me confunde, y me causa sentir miedo, y peligro especialmente si se trata de un conocido, un amigo, o un familiar, y por eso mismo me gusta ser muy honesta con mi vida, y soy, muy clara con mi comunicación, no soy complicada o misteriosa, y tengo una vida simple, y lo sabes muy bien. La verdad no me ofende, la verdad, no me asusta, la verdad hay veces que si me hace excaramunsiar, pero prefiero la verdad! dime la verdad! Anda ximelo  ay carajo, que no vex que soy buena honda. Comprendo que usualmente las personas son mandadas al Alcolicos Anónimos AA  por un juez por manejar borrachos DUI o porque tienen serios problemas con la ley judicial, y antes de ir delante de un  juez deciden incresar al AA para que su sentencia sea minima o los dejen libres, esa no es mi historia. Mi buena amiga me dijo, y me aseguro que yo no era una alcolica, dentro de mi yo sabia que yo tenia una propensidad al vicio porque mi madre biológica es alcohólica, mi padre fue alcohólico y adicto a la cocaína, y mi hermano es alcohólico también. afortunadamente en Los Angeles, Calfornia muchas de las personas que incresan a AA buscan un circulo social donde no se tome ningún tipo de  alcohol o se haga ningún tipo de drogas, y están en busca de una sanación interna, como yo la eh estaba buscando la sanacion desde los 13años de edad.  Doce años atrás cuando vivía en West Hollywood, camine por casi una milla y fui a mi primera junta de AA en MCC Church y fui recibida con brazos abiertos por los maricones que estaban presente ese día en esa iglesia y confieso que no vi a ninguna maricona presente. En el 2002 tuve una fuerte reacción al alcohol  después de compartír  dos botellas de champaña, cuatro botellas de vino, y cervezas de malta y perdí mi sentido por completo, en ese momento la razón, y objetividad no existía, solo existía la desesperación, el miedo, y  la sobreviviencia de mi ego,  y si puedo decir que perdí mi mente completamente durante la fiesta de cumpleaños de la misma buena amiga que me dijo que yo no era alcohólica y al perder mi mente por estar borracha la insulte y la trate muy mal delante de sus compañeros de trabajo.  Ese día mi buena amiga cancelo su fiesta de cumpleaños, les dijo a sus amigas que se fueran  me saco de su apartamento, y yo toque su puerta por mucho rato, le implore de que me abriera la puerta.  le rogue que me dejarle explicarle, eh continue asiendo el ridículo delante de toda la vecindad,y  de sus roomates,  y a mi no me importo que me vieran de esa forma  porque estaba totalmente borracha, y continue tocando sus ventanas y puerta implorándole que hablara conmigo pero ella no quería verme mas la cara y no me abrió.  En esos momento de locura, confusion y ansiedad al día siguiendo cuando a un estaba borracha mi mente y yo decidimos empeorar la situacion y llame a mi buena amiga me disculpe, eh  invente una mentira de que yo habia sido violada sexualmente y que por eso habia actuado de la forma que actúe en su cumpleaños, para desquitare con ella porque ella se estaba apartando de mi, y no me estaba el mismo trato y atención que me daba antes,  y que ella era indiferente a mi sufrimiento y tenia mucho rencor por hacia ella por eso. A mi me gusta compartir esta historia con muchísimas personas porque me ayuda a contemplar los momentos mas vergonzosos y desagradables que yo cree bajo la influencia del alcohol. Esta historia es un buen ejemplo para mi  y me asegura sin ninguna duda, que mi vida es ingobernable con el alcohol y drogas, y que el alcohol y drogas no pueden ser parte de mi vida, y que un poder superior de me devolvió a sano jucio y eso es lo que el despertar de la energía kundalini en mi cuerpo significa para mi. El despertar es la intervención divina que yo necesitaba en mi vida para poder apreciarme a mi misma y valorar la vida, la naturaleza, y todo lo lindo de esta creación .  El abuso del alcohol y las drogas me hicieron enloquecer por completo, y perdí la razón y  tuve una gran  transtornacion mental que se manifesto en otras areas de mi vida como la relacion entre mi familia y yo, porque decidí alejarme de ellos y no quise  enfrentar ningún tipo de desacuerdo que pasaba entre nosotros. En 1995 todos los miembros de mi familia estábamos sobreviviendo en este país como imigrantes la mayor parte de mi familia no se enfoco en aprender ingles o ir a la escuela, primero porque no tenían papeles legales para poder ser admitidos a un high school, segundo porque tenían miedo de ser deportados si se presentaban en lugares públicos como una escuela que enseñaba ingles en las noches, tercero porque  las escuelas que enseñaban ingles  tenían horarios que no considian con los horarios de los miembros de mi familia que estaban trabajando sin papeles durante el día y la noche sin un seguro medico, o ningún tipo de respaldo del gobierno, cuarto porque nos les intereso el estudio o aprender ingles,  todos nosotros estábamos sobreviviendo en un país nuevo el alcohol era una buena forma para que algunos de nosotros nos desestresamos de todos los cambios que estaban ocurriendo alrededor de nosotros especialmente mi primo y yo que fuimos los primeros de llegar a este país en nuestra adolescencia.  A mi personalmente,  el alcohol me ayudo a olvidar que parte de nuestra familia se habia tenido que quedar en Colombia y nos separamos, el alcohol me ayudo a olvidar sus lagrimas y desesperacion porque ellos también querían venirse con nosotros pero no teníamos el dinero para costear sus viejes  al pesar del pesar mi lastima éramos muy unidos y siempre nos hemos querido mucho al pesar del pesar.  El alcohol me ayudo a olvidar que mi abuela que era como mi madre se habia tenido que quedar con mi otro tío  porque no habia el dinero necesario para que ella pudiera cruzar la frontera, y ella ya era muy vieja para que le dieran mas trabajo y poder recoger su propio dinero para inmigrar aquí  el alcohol me ayudo al olvidar que mis otros primos se habían quedado luchando en un país donde no hay oportunidad para progresar si uno nace en una familia pobre y no importa de que raza una sea  blanco, negro, mestizo, indio, si naces en una familia pobre estas cagado, y no importa que te eduques muy bien en una universidad. el salario de una contadora es el mismo salario de una mujer que vende chotaduros en la calle.  El alcohol me ayudo a olvidar que mis primitas que en ese entonces tenían cuatro y seis años se habían quedado solas con su madre que se le hacia muy dificil encontrar trabajo porque era mujer y divorciada, el padre de las niñas era y todavía es una porquería. El no respaldo financialmente o emocionalmente a sus dos  hijas, y le negó el permiso para que ellas pudieran salir de Colombia y venir a los Estados Unidos porque el quería inmigrar a este pais  y no podia hacerlo entonces ese hombre malo no dejo que su hijas pudieran tener el amor y  el apoyo de su familia que vivía en este país, y que ellas tuvieran la oportunidad de poder ir a una escuela, y que tuvieran buenos ejemplos, su egoismo y crueldad  causo que mis dulces eh inocentes primitas crecieran como gaminas luchando por su sobrevivencia entre predatores sexuales que se aprovechan de jóvenes especialmente si son pobres, eh ingenuas y eso es lo que es la normalidad y lo aceptado en ciertas culturas en esta linda Tierra hermosisima EA.  Ellas crecieron sin saber valorar su sexualidad, su inteligencia, y con muy poco auto estima. Este hombre malo también era un drogadicto y aunque mi prima se divorcio de el ese hombre malo le hizo la vida un infierno a mi prima  y a sus dos hijas  abusandolas mentalmente,  físicamente, y emocionalmente, y con su perversidad, morbosidad y su orgullo de hombre macho que se lucia de ser parte de una familia que tenia unos cuantos centavos y sus casas propias aunque ni el dinero ni las casas eran de el . Esa cara de mosca y zancudo mezclado con ñoña se creia un don juan con derecho de tratar a las mujeres como una mierda, dejarlas en embarazo especialmente si eran menores de edad, y ya cuando mis primitas crecieron  ese hombre no respeto  sus propias hijas  y las deseo como objetos sexuales. Quiero confensar que estos asuntos personales me afectaron profundamente porque yo fui testigo de su crueldad hacia mi linda prima y sus hijas, y yo no hice nada, solamente me olvide, de el, de mi prima, y de mis primitas y de sus lagrimas y de su sufrimiento.... y ahora, ya de grande una de ellas  que ahora es una viuda y madre de dos niñas y un niño  me pregunto hace un día,  que si en nuestra familia existía una maldición porque estábamos cagados con tantas huevonadas que nos ha pasado, y que si estamos malditos mi linda primita quiere que se corte esa maldición de inmediato y es así, y así es.

    en mi plena adición del alcohol yo tenia cambios bruscos de temperamento y me ofendían lo que los demás decían de mi muy fácilmente, y sentirme rechazada por mi propia madre, eh amigos etc  pero cuando yo tomaba el alcohol me  podia  olvidar todas las tristezas que yo enfrentaba en la vida, como la desesperación y inquietud de no poder tener una varita magica como una ada, y hacer a todo el mundo feliz y no ver a nadie mas sufrir. El alcohol  me asía sentir alegre, y bobita porque después de que yo tomo alcohol  no siento nada, y no me importaba nada. y cuando no estaba tomando siempre me gusto enfocarme en los asuntos ajenos,  me gusto solo ver los defectos de carácter que mi familia tenia, y los defectos que tenían los demás y después de mi análisis me fascinaba dar consejos y tratar de arreglarles sus vidas. En ningún momento pensé en solo concentrarme en mi misma o tener mis propios sentimientos  o mi sensibilidad como un ser humano en cuenta. Yo nunca vi a el alcohol de una forma negativa y jamas vi  que muy adentro de mi tenia mucha tristeza. No me imagine que yo era alcohólica porque nunca tome alcohol a diario solo tomaba recreacionalmente y era responsable con mi trabajo. En mi familia antes de inmigrar a este país durante nuestra niñes nos acostumbramos a ver a nuestro padre tomar mucho alcohol y cervezas, y el  junto con mi tía eran las únicas  personas que nos  respaldaban financialmente. Sus sueldos pagaban  la renta de la casa en la que vivíamos, la comida,   y los biles de doctores de  nueve personas, dos primos, tres primas, dos primitas hijas de una prima, mi abuela con el sueldo de mi padre que manejaba un camion de miel de pulga, y mi tía que era una costurera en una fabrica.  El alcoholismo de mi padre nunca fue reprochado o visto con ningún juzgamiento porque el traía el dinero a casa y siempre fue buen padre con sus biológicos y a mi me trato como si hija. Mi tía amo a mi padre ciegamente y aprendió a aceptar su alcoholismo.  En mi opinion, mi tía como madre y esposa a sacrificado mucho en su vida, sacrifico su serenidad, sus sentimientos, su auto estima,  y paz porque se aguanto una vida de perro a lidiar con alcolicos desde su niñes, desde su juventud, y en su vejes, sobrevivió y fue testigo de  abuso físico, abuso sexual, abuso mental, abuso emocional y discriminación por ser mujer y hispana, y soporto las otras personalidades en nuestra familia que son fuertes, caprichosas, necias, inconsideradas y bobaos con babas de panocha y por eso para mi mi tía es santa y la quiero muchísimo porque y soy débil ante su compasión, generosidad, y buena voluntad, y al tener este buen ejemplo en mi vida estoy cociente que no me puedo quejar de nada, y que mi vida a sido muy buena porque soy soltera no tengo hijos y no soporte vivir una vida de perro con alcolicos y drogadictos o con personas que son abusivos porque tienen dinero,  poder o  un trabajo, y preferí ser yo la alcohólica y drogadicta y cacarme yo sola y no hacer sufrir a nadie. El alcoholismo  rodeo a mi tía desde niña. Ella nunca tuvo ninguna adición con el alcohol, y siempre a sido una fuerte fundación en mi familia, y ella para mi a sido una linda fuente de inspiración porque es una persona humilde y muy simple, y pudo levantar a toda su familia aguantase tratos bruscos de parte de mi padre amplificados por su adición al alcohol y porque era muy mujeriego. Mi tía siempre penso en sus hijas, y hijos primero que su propia salud o comodidad, ella tuvo encuenta que sus hijas y hijos tuvieran a su padre al lado, y  que no perdieran el apoyo financiero o emocional, ella siempre se aseguro que su familia tuviera todo, ropa, zapatos y mucho amor. Mi tía inmigro a los Estados Unidos a los 44 años de edad junto con su hijo menor de 17 años y con su sobrina de 26años. Mi tía se divorcio de mi papa  finalmente cuando se dio cuenta que mi papa estaba en una seria relación con una negra que tenia hijos.  Un día se fue la luz en la fabrica en la cual mi tía trabajaba por largas horas de costurera, cuando mi tía llego a la casa sono el teléfono y  ella lo contesto, la voz era de una  mujer esa mujer era  la amante de mi papa. esa negra  le dijo a  mi tía que mi papa era su marido, mi tía, le respondió a esa señora que ella estaba muy equivocada, porque la esposa de mi papa, y madre de sus hijos era ella y le colgó el teléfono.  Cuando mi papa llego a la casa ese mismo día, mi tía lo confronto y le dijo que su amante lo habia  llamado y que se habia presentado como su esposa, mi papa se rio, mi tía le dijo que sacara sus maletas y se fuera, el le dijo que no se iba ir de la casa, entonces mi tía le dijo que entonces ella si se iba, y dos semanas después utilizo una pequeña herencia que le dejo su difunto padre, y la utilizo  para pagarle a un coyote para que la ayudara a viajar y cruzar la frontera de los Estados Unidos desde Colombia pasando por Mexico . Siete años después de que mi tía inmigro a Los Estados Unidos, mi padre fue diagnosticado con cancer en la próstata y se le mastitizo en su huesos, y tuvo una muerte espantosa y agonizante porque en ese entonces no habían los tratamientos en contra del cancer que existen ahora, y mucho menos en Colombia. Cuando mi tía inmigro a este país, ella decidió no tomar alcohol, y ella a trabajo durisimo toda su vida, y ahora a los 73 años todavía trabaja hasta los domingos porque siempre le a gustado trabajar y es muy orgullosa de que tiene trabajo en este país y mi tía tiene en cuenta que en otros países nadie le daría trabajo en estos momentos, Mi primo dice que en Colombia cuando uno tíene 30 años de edad, es muy dificil que te den empleo, es casi imposible que te den trabajo después de los 30 años de edad, porque eso significa que estas viejo y  que ya no tienes la fuerza física que tiene un joven. Mi tia va trabajar en este país  hasta que se le venga en gana y que su salud se lo permita.

     Cuando me relacionaba con mi familia nosotros tomábamos juntos y la pasábamos bien tomábamos tequilas, cervezas, vodka y otros licores, el rum o la ginebra nunca me gusto porque me hacia vomitar de inmediato. En el año 2005 tome una cerveza con mi madre biológica en una barra de lesbianas esa fue la única vez que tome con mi madre, nunca tome alcohol con mi hermano, y el a mi no me vio tomar alcohol o hacer drogas,  ningún miembro de mi familia me vio fumando marijuana o hacer otras drogas  Pero si me gusto tomar con mi primo porque el es gay, y yo en ese entonces estaba experimentando con mi sexualidad, y tiraba mas al lado de las mujeres. Mi primo y yo la pasamos muy bien, porque nos entendíamos desde pequeños, el y yo tomábamos bastante alcohol y salíamos a bailar - en ese entonces en el pleno centro de mi enfermedad de alcoholismo yo  quería resolverle los problemas a mi familia, quería arreglar sus vidas, y mi gran tristeza fue sentirme incapaz de ayudarlos a aliviar sus sufrimientos entonces yo preferí alejarme, continuar tomando alcohol recreacionalmente y experimentaron con las  drogas y evitar cualquier tipo de interacción familiar este error causo la perdida de lindos momentos que pude compartir con mi familia, como ver a mis primitos los hijos de mis primas y primos crecer y jugar con ellos cuando eran niños y ayudarles  aunque sea  con limpiar un baño en la casa, lavar la losa, sacar la basura afuera, traducirles papeles que no entendían muy bien, cocinar para ellos, acompañarlos a un medico,   y si perdí muchas oportunidades de expresarles que tanto los quería y los apreciaba  y tengo la buena suerte que ellos ya  saben que los aprecios, y que no puedo arreglar sus vidas, o cambiar sus forma de ser, y aunque no tenemos el mismo estilo de vida, yo se que mi familia de alguna manera o otra es parte de este lindo despertar. Yo se  que sus vidas mejoraran al igual que la mia. Yo se que ya están salvados y que son dignos de recibir el amor de dios y de evolucionar. Yo se que  mi sacrada familia  no va sufrir mas dolores físicos  mentales, emocionales, y ya  no van a ser castigos por ser hispanos, mujer o hombre,  ignorantes, o inteligentes, ricos o pobres lindos, o feos y que de una forma o otra conocerán al lindo dulce dios que ellos conciben,  el dios al cual ellos le han amado ciegamente en toda su vidas, sin importales quien es, quien lo hizo, y quien hizo a el que lo hizo,  y si realmente existe y como existe o si dios es blanco o negro.  Con la influencia de alcohol y drogas no me importo nada o nadie,  en esta capacidad mental se me hizo muy fácil de crear muchos errores en mi vida, y inventar mentiras especialmente cuando la enfermedad del alcoholismo estaba presente en mi vida sin ningún tipo de tratamiento, o la sincera conexión con dios atravez de oración, meditación, yoga, canto etc. En la historia sobre mi buena amiga y su cumpleaños yo veo que que mi prímer error fue el abuso del alcohol y insultar a mi buena amiga, el segundo error fue dañarle su fiesta de cumpleaños, el tercer error  inventar la mentira de la violación sexual. Mis acciones afectaron mi vida,  la vida de mi buena amiga y las personas presentes y la serenidad de otras personas que escucharon sobre este incidente. al siguiente día yo misma me admití a mi misma que yo era impotente ante el alcohol, y que mi vida se habia vuelto ingobernable. Yo estoy consiente de que cuando mentí sobre la violación sexual  habia perdido mi mente por completo, y solo me importo lo que los demás iban a pensar, y decir  de mi comportamiento. En ese Otoño del 2002  yo estaba apunto de graduarme de una escuela de vocación y habia tenido muchos días sin averme presentado, entonces utilize la misma  historia de la violación sexual  en una junta con la directora de la escuela y también en una free clinic en West Hollywood, California. Confienso que entre mi quise creer que realmente habia sido violada sexualmente, y continue hablando sobre la misma historia de la violación (rape) en diferentes ocasiones otra vez de mi despertar de la energía kundalini me di cuenta de que todo lo que yo eh pensando, echo, dicho, todo lo que yo deseo, ya se sabe, y no hay ningún secreto ante dios  mi higher power, al estar consiente de esto me dio mucha fuerzas para ser totalmente transparente eh impecable con mi vida, estoy muy agradecida de no ser castiga, torturada,  desaparecida, o encarcelada bajo cargos falsos, y ser sentenciada a muerte y vivir en una cárcel por muchos años y después ser ejecutada con un injection letal. en una cámara de gas o electrocutada en una silla solamente por compartir la verdad de mi experience strength and hope, and this is why I say,  god is the greatest, god bless America. 



     En la cultura latina el alcoholismo es como si no existiera  y al hablar del alcoholismo causa risa, y vergüenza eh inspira muchos chistes y bromas. 
    Yo siempre me eh considerado una persona que es "Open Mind" habiendo leído unas partes de el Libro Grande  conocido como el Big Book, una que otra pagina de Como Lo Ve Bill, As Bill Sees It y el manual de Los Doce Pasos de Alcolicos Anónimos, en mi opinion,  los defectos de carácter ya  tanto como la deficiencia mental, la fuga de realidad de un Alcoholico y un drogadito son los mismos defectos de carácter y trastornos que tienen personas que son sobrias o consideradas como"normies" (Toman un traguito de aves en cuando, y no mas de tres tragos). Yo estoy consiente que en muchas ocasiones eh sacrificado mi vida, integridad, y autenticidad al estar preocupándome por mi sobrevivencia, y comodidad personal porque el dinero también me hizo olvidarlo todo, y se me hizo muy fácil ser indiferente a mi paz y harmonía y ignorar  lo que estaba pasando alrededor mio,  me olvide de mi propia serenidad, y se me olvido todo con el dinero, estando en sano jucio porque me enfoque a presenciar mi retorno a mi salud, y manterme "Open Mind" con todo el abuso de substancias que estaba pasando en la casa que rentaba, en todos los avisos que yo publique,  no encontré a personas que no tomaran alcohol o que No fumaran marijuana, y tampoco encontré a ninguna mujer que estuviera interesada en compartir una casa con varias personas y al final mi decision de rentarle a los hombres a cuales yo le rente fue por necesidad,  esta experiencia me enseño que realmente No importa si tratas bien a una persona, o si decides no hablar con ellas, a no ser que para decirles, hola! buenos días, have a good day! hola como estas have a good night! y no importa que no compartas una comida con ella o ellos, o les respetes su privacidad porque al final las personas tienen sus deficiencias mentales, y van hacer lo que quieran, y las personas a las que yo invite a vivir a mi casa, al rentarles y la persona que me dio ride en su troca y me compro buffet Chino, el dueño de la propiedad, se aprovecharon de verme sola, y se les olvido que vivimos en los Estados Unidos y que sexual harrasment is a crime, and yes, I am a woman and yes, I am hispanic and yes, my cousins have a lot of children and they are single mothers but this does not give anyone the right to vilote my rights as a human being, or harrass me sexually because I live alone, in a free country, and yes, I am Non Violent,  this people, intentaron de utilizar entrapamiento, me provocaron al violar mis derechos humanos, y mi privacidad sabiendo que yo estoy en un estado vulnerable,  ellos, y ellas,  sabían muy bien que mi familia no vivia conmigo, y nunca invite a mis amigos a mi casa,  o que utilize el poder de las organizaciones como Latino Equality Alliance, GetEqual, Human Rights Campaign, Love Honor and Cherish, Honor Pac, y otras que están luchando por la reforma inmigratoria como La Casa de Maryland, and the panpletos electromicos de Amazon Watch que defienden los derechos de los indigenous people in the rainforest of South America, y todas las organizaciones cuales yo promoví, y apoye durante la campaña de Prop8 al distribuir sus panfletos electronicos ,  atravez de social media, y otras publicaciones, gráficos, videos, etc. Yo decidi No acudir a estas organizaciones para que defendieran mis derechos civiles, y mis derechos humanos porque el único crimen que yo comiti fue pagar mi renta y ser responsable con mi vida,   y decidi no ser sociable, y cerrar mi Facebook account, y la de twitter, y esa otra de LinkeIn, porque yo  decidi ser mas adulta y restaurar mi salud físico, mi salud mental, y mi salud emocional, y  resolver mis problemas personales,  y nunca me imagine que  estos hombres y mujeres que entraron, y rentaron cuartos en la casa que yo alquile  y vivieron, y visitaron la propiedad llegaran a tanto, sin ningún motivo ninguno, y me amenazaron, y quisieron intimidarne, y ellos y ellas creen  que yo les tengo miedo  porque tienen un penny mas que yo, y porque no les importa matar a cualquiera por dinero y fama,  y la verdad, si,  les tengo miedo porque son cobardes, deshonorables,  violentos sádicos, y ya tienes sus nombres, donde ellos y ellas trabajan, copias de sus drivers liscence, y sus fotos y toda la información personal y profesional y la de todos sus amiguitos y amiguitas en Europa y en las Islas...  si algo me pasa a mi, oops un accidente, oops, ha ha ham, o mi a mi familia ellos son los responsables por mi muerte o la muerto de cualquier miembro de mi familia, porque ha ha ham vivimos el Los Estados Unidos and yes, I do believe that the justice system in this country is a good system and it will continue to evolve just like I AM . Las  personas, que  entraron a la propiedad en la que yo vivi, si tienen la autorización de poder utilizar legalmente  la cocaína,  crystal meth, y píldoras para poder dormir, y muscles relaxers, y abusar alcohol, y obligar a mujeres y hombres,  a que tengan sexo con ellos o si No!We will show you who is boss! My Whyskey My Jazz! We will fabricate stories and create false charges! porque son partes de familias religiosas y respetadas, que tienen buenos abogados, que son patrocinados por organizaciones que tienen billones de dolares familias que ignoran que sus hijos, hijas, nietos, y nietas, padres, madres, empleados o ejecutivos,  tienen un serio problema con el abuso de substancias y  ellos y ellas tienen desviaciones sexuales que alaban el abuso sexual a travez de sus adiciones a la pornografía, violencia a los niños, mujeres, y hombres, y animales,  el uno cuanto que esta sobrio, también tiene una seria fuga de realidad, y estos hombres haquieron mis cuentas de correo, y todas mis otras cuentas que abri en la internet, y mi cuenta de banco, tomaron fotos de mis cosas personales, y me robaron, y ya sabes todo lo de mas.  porque Ya, No, Hay SECRETOS! Are You trying to run? Are you busy going nowhere?  yo misma me convertí en un easy prey, y yo misma me victimize, yo sola me puse en peligro porque el dinero de ellos que utilize para pagar la renta me hizo olvidar todo hasta de mi seguridad personal, y no me importo el riesgo en el que vivi junto con estas personas, porque mi comodidad personal fue mas importante, y tengo mucha suerte al poder escribir esta historia, y estar viva, y por eso digo, god blesss America.... ! porque en otro país ya hubiera sido desaparecida para que aprendas!
    When is too much honesty... too much? I wonder, honey suckle! la experiencia que acabe de compartir contigo honey suckle me enseño mucho, tienes toda la razón  esto me paso a mi,  por no tener un marido al lado con el cual yo tenga sexo at least once a week .  Honey suckle, esto,  No significa que yo voy a parar de tratar bien a las personas o, No respetarlas por A. ...B... o, C.  estos últimos tres años sacrifique mi integridad  por el dinero, y aunque en ningún momento tuve la temptacion de hacer drogas con ellos y ellas, o tomar alcohol y hacer sus drogas, yo! sacrifique mi serenidad.  Soy muy afortunada que la presencia del espíritu de dios esta conmigo en cada momento, y estoy en muy  buena compañía y aunque me sentí triste al no poder confiar en las personas con las que yo convivía ni como un acquaintance no tome alcohol, no hice drogas, no tuve ningún encuentro sexual con ninguna persona, no robe, no mentí, y no le hize mal a nadie, o envolucre a nadie en los problemas o dificultades que yo misma cree durante una etapa muy dificil. En los tres años pasados, todo el dinero que yo recibí era para pagar la renta, los biles de cable, gas, electricidad y comida para mi, este dinero lo recibí de personas que son drogaditas y alcohólicas, solo vivi con una persona que decía ser sobria, y el dinero de un drogadicto es el mismo dinero de una persona sobria, y el carácter de la persona sobria, se me hizo muy parecido a la personalidad de la persona que es drogadicta, y si se me hizo muy fácil ignorar sus personalidades, y sus defectos de carácter y su invasion de mi privacidad, y el chaos que armaron alrededor mio,  especialmente en el año 2014 las personas con cuales yo vivi eran  capaces,inteligentes, y amigables y  están seriamente afligidos por el alcoholismo y las drogas, fumaban marijuana y tomaban alcohol casi todos los días, y les gustaba tener sexo entre ellos mismos sin protección y hasta con los vecinos, y vecinas, y su dinero me hizo olvidarlo todo, aunque simpre permanecí alerta porque la vida tiene sorpresas y sorpresas tiene la vida, y aunque sabia que fumaban marijuana me di cuenta que hacían cocaína, y crystal meth on occasion y píldoras ya cuando vivian conmigo, y si, este  es el gran peligro de rentar cuartos a extraños, pero lo mismo se puede decir de conocidos y hasta familiares, pero el dinero me lo hizo olvidar todo, el dinero que me pagaban para yo pagar la renta de la casa que rentaba, y si note que el abuso de substancias causan mucho desorden en mi vida. Es por eso que yo prefiero vivir o convivir con personas que no tomen alcohol y que no  estén bajo la influencia de cualquier tipo drogas incluyendo la marijuana, personas que pueden discernir entre lo verdadero y lo falso,  que  no quieran experimentar la tranquilidad y bienestar que un cacho de marijuana les brinda al fumarlo anteriormente pensaba que la marijuana no hacia daño pero la personas que yo conocí durante mi vida que fuman marijuana hacen daño a otras personas y apropósito, la marijuana es inocente. Y aunque el dinero me hace olvidarlo todo prefiero no vivir con marijuaneros y alcolicos aunque tengan dinero o propiedades, y sean partes de familias religiosas y respetables ya sean blancos, judíos, o negros, y hispanos, etc... prefiero convivir con personas que son sanas, y puras, dulces, y simples , que aman a dios sobre todas las cosas, eh entienden lo que es tener integridad y autenticidad, y no tienen que ser miembros de Alcolicos Anonimos.  
    estoy conciente que todo lo que yo escribo aquí, yo misma lo cree, me explico, yo eligi no tomar mas alcohol, o fumar marijuana, o hacer otras drogas. yo eligi la casa que yo rentaba, yo elegí el dueño a el que yo le alquilaba la casa , yo elige terminar amistades con personas que consideraba como mi familia y amigos, yo eligi vivir sola sin el apoyo de ninguna organización,  elige enfocarme en estar sobria, y restaurar mi salud, yo eligi no moverme a otro lugar a donde pudiera vivir gratis y no preocuparme por dinero  yo elegí entender lo que era la energía kundalini por mi propia cuenta, yo eligi no tener sexo o tener novio o novia y abstenerme de tener sexo, yo eligi  todas las personas que convivieron conmigo durante el transcurso de tres años, yo eligi alejarme de ellas, yo elijo acordarme de ellas y ellos, y de todos los eventos que yo creado en mi vida, para evitar que otra holocausto vuelva acurrir durante mi vida, o con las vidas de mi familia que aman a esta país al igual que yo. confienso que adentro de mi existe algo que esta programado para que yo acepte a ver la vida como un juego y un experimento porque si no fuera de esta manera no se hablaria de estas posibilidades de "juego" o "experimento" en toda partes, como publicaciones  libros, revistas, Television,  radio, escrituras sagradas, . En el budismo estas manifestaciones de posibilidades se explica como la teoría del  "esho funi".  Yo elijo no crear mi vida en un juego o en un experimento. y me siento muy afortunada que atravez de mi despertar de energía kundalini eh logrado tener un cambio psíquico completo. toda la programación errónea que yo misma cree (programe) y elegí  antes de encarne en este cuerpo,  para aprender lo que se sentía ser un ser humano, en el cuerpo de una mujer de raza hispana, gordo o flaca, fea o bonita, inteligente o ignorante, déspota o amigable, se esta trasmutiendo y borrando, y de esa forma ya no va existir el odio, y el resentimiento feroz  que yo misma programe (cree) en mi misma porque yo eligi existir en una realidad programada en el materialisto inspirada en la dualidad, y en la depedencia a otras personas, cosas, etc, una realidad programada en el cual el sufrimiento,  dolor, y crueldad son celebrados y homenajeados, o castigados. Algo muy importante esta pasando dentro de mi, todos los traumas que sufri al transcurso de toda mi vida, todos los dolores, todos los rechazos, todas las humillaciones, todos las maltratos, todo el miedo se esta borrando en mi mente,  y eso es lo que la purificación es para mi. y me siento muy alegre de olvidarlo todo because,  I am,  living for loves. y es así y así sea.

     Yo se que eh creado todo en mi vida y que eh elidido todas mis lecciones en esta vida.   y no soy responsable de la forma que las personas actúen o lo que ellas  decidan hacer con sus vidas pero si soy responsable de mis acciones,  y estoy muy agradecida de estar viva en estos momentos para compartir mi historia contigo. Confienso que apenas ahora yo estoy comprendiendo lo que significa ser transparente, eh impecable en palabra, ación y pensamiento, y todavía sigo siendo "Open Mind" porque amo mucho a familia, y unos cuantos de ellos toman sus vinitos en los fines de semanas y unos cuantos de ellos toman durante la semana tambien  y los quiero mucho tal como son. 

    Yo se que soy adulta y aprecio tener la oportunidad de  conocerme mejor. Estoy tranquila al saber que  la relación entre mi familia y yo ah mejorado  aunque no vivimos juntos.  Aprecio la oputunidad de aber escuchado partes del historial de mi familia. Varios incidentes de abuso sexual habían pasado con mis primos, mi hermano, mi madre, mi tía y estos incidentes estaban relacionados con el alcoholismo y las drogas. En Colombia,  mi madre biológica fue violada desde los ocho años  por  su tío que era un viejo borracho pervertido con dinero. Este tipo, no solamente disfruta el poder violar una indefensa niña de ocho años pero también fue visto con una buena persona porque tenia dinero y hacia buenas obras de caridad en el pueblo en el que vivía  El abuso sexual de mi madre continuo con otro de sus hermanos que también era borracho y pervertido estos sádicos nunca fueron llevados a la justicia porque en ese entonces en Colombia las mujeres tenían menos derechos que tienen ahora, y ser violadas y abusadas físicamente es algo normal. De suerte que mi abuela fue fuerte pero si tuvo mucho  miedo de eso sádicos porque no los divulgo ante la justicia, me supongo que tuvo miedo por su vida y por las vidas de sus 2 hijas y tres hijos que a un eran jóvenes y muy pobres,  y me supongo que tampoco quiso perder la ayuda financiera que recibía de su hermano (el tío, violador),  Ella utilizaba el dinero que ese violador le daba para mantener sus cinco hijos y darles un hogar donde dormir y comida. Mi madre se alcoholiso desde muy temprana edad, y jamas quiso ayuda profesional de adulta cuando ya estaba en Los Estados Unidos. Mi madre es una buena persona que inspiro al resto de mi familia para que inmigrara a estés país, ninguno de mis primos o tía  pudo convivir con ella porque al hacerlo  recibieron su ira, su odio y su tristeza y fueron testigos de sus instabilidad mental  amplificado por su  grave eh insaciable adición al alcohol, mi hermano heredo la enfermedad del alcoholismo y aunque mi hermano tiene un buen corazón, y es muy inteligente mi hermano asusta a todo el mundo porque no se sabe comportar, ni borracho ni sobrio y es super grosero.  Yo personalmente digo que para mi el alcohol fue mi  droga de entrada (gateway drug)  para experimentar con  la Marijuana, cocaína, acid, crack cocaine, crystal meth, y una que otra pain killer prescribed by a doctor to someone else.  En el 2003 tuve mi primera  recaída al alcohol y drogas cuando conocí a un señora Mejicana nacida en Arizona que era muy bonita,  muy alcohólica y muy drogadita y tenia dinero para gastar en drogas y en alcohol. Ella era perfecta para mi porque ella era hermosa, me atraia físicamente, y ella, y yo  podíamos hablar de cualquier tema,  y yo soy superficial y me gustan las cosas bonitas. Yo  probe la droga que se llama ecstacia, y también aspire crystal meth con la chicana en tres ocasiones, mientras que estaba en el trabajo, en el lapso de tres  weekends , y durante una thanksgiving dinner. Después de darme cuenta que la chicana le gustaba mentir y aunque éramos muy compatibles y teníamos el mismo gusto con las drogas, y los martinis de vodka  decidi alejarme de la chicana y me rientegre a Alcolicos Anónimos ese mismo año. La ultima vez que utilize el crystal meth y la droga ecstacia  fue en el otoño de 2003 con la chicana.  En el 1994 probe crack cocaine con un bellísimo americano blanco  que conocí en una barra en Washington, D.C de transvestis  el y yo tuvimos sexo en una ocasión. La segunda ocasión cuando yo vi al Americano blanco no tuve sexo con el pero si  fume  la crack cocaine en el basement que el alquilaba,  el crack cocaine no tuvo ningún efecto para mi, y me pareció que olía a plástico quemado.  La segunda vez que fume crack cocaine fue en el 2001 con un bellísimo Americano  negro en un estacionamiento de carros en Los Angeles, California ese día estaba muy tomada después de mi  trabajo en una barra en la cual yo trabajaba vendiendo alcohol. El negro  me ofreció un poco de su crack cocaine y yo la fume, el negro y yo no tuvimos sexo,o ningún tipo de acto intimo solamente fumamos crack cocaine y philosofiamos sobre la vida. El 2001 fue la ultima vez que yo fume crack cocaine con el negro en el estacionamiento de carros  y jamas volví a fumar crack cocaine desde ese día.

    Tome mi primer trago cuando tenia cinco años de edad. En ese entonces vivia en Cali, Colombia. con mi abuela, mi tia, el esposo de mi tía, que yo le llamaba papa, y mis lindisimos primitos.  En una fiesta que tuvieron mis primos, yo observe que estaban sirviendo una substancia clara en pequeños vasitos de plástico que le ofrecían a los invitados, esa substancia es conocida como AguaArdiente.  Hoy me di cuenta  que hay diferentes tipos de aguardientes, y que estas substancias son fuertes bebidas alcolicas, que se hacen atravez de la fermentación y destilación de mostos dulces (sweet musts),  maceraciones de vegetales (vegetable macerations) o mezclas de las dos. El nivel genérico por definición de aguardientes, se hace de diferentes maneras. Aguardientes echos de frutas, incluyen naranjas, uvas, bananas, medronho ("cane apple). Los aguardientes echos de granos son echos con  mijo (millet) cebada (barley) y arroz and tuberbased aguardientes son echos de remolachas, manioc, papa y los que se consideran "True" "Verdaderos" Aguardientes son echos de  caña de azúcar (sugarcane) y otras cañas de azúcar, y también ciertos tipos de bamboos.
    Cuando vi a una de mis primas colocar la bandeja que estaba utilizando para cargar los vasitos plásticos de trago en la mesa de la cocina, y la vi regresar a la sala donde estaban los invitados,  yo decidí probar los sobrados de aguaArdiente que quedaban en los vasitos plasticos,  minutos después de probar el aguardiente  me acuerdo que todo comenzó a jirar alrededor, me sentí muy mariada,  y caí privada en la cama de un cuartito pequeño en la casa que mi tia y papa rentaban.  Ese fue el primer momento que probe un trago de alcohol, jamas volvi a tomar aguardiente después de esa instancia.. pero si confienso, que me fascinaba tomar chicha, y cerveza mezclada con una soda llamada Popular cuando me ofrecían estas deliciosas bebidas casi alcohólicas. anda dime la verdad, que no ves, que no ves puesm, soy Ms. Universos, Ay carajo!
      Cualquier dolor o malestar fisico que yo estoy enfrentando en estos momentos, lo veo como una bendicion que es parte de mi purificación interna y mi sanción  Ay, que maluquera que jaqueca!  al tener un punto de referencia de haber experimentado con drogas que alteran la mente, y causan mucha ansiedad al sistema nervioso, el corazón... y que no me importo  lo que estas substancias le hacían a mi cuerpo, o los dolores que yo sentí cuando yo  aspire la cocaína o el crystal meth por la nariz - si yo comparo los dolores que yo misma eh creado en mi cuerpo por mi adición con el alcohol y las drogas, etc... con los dolores y malestares físicos que ocurren durante el proceso de purificación cuando la  energía kundalini esta despierta en el cuerpo humano, como lo esta en mi cuerpo, puedo reconocer que la vida me ama incondicionalmente como soy, y que yo soy muy importante para la vida. porque sinceramente no se porque a un estoy viva en estos momentos, y cada día luzco mas bonita, y así, y así es...

    En Los Angeles, California, hace tres años atrás, cuando fui a unas de las primeras clases de Kundalini Yoga después de que la energía de kundalini despertó en mi cuerpo, las lindisimas  and awesome super strong Kundalini yoga instrutoras de el centro que se conocía como Simona Yoga en Los Angeles, California siempre decían al principio de la clase que ellas no  tocaban a sus alumnos y trataban de no  abrazarless tampoco. Yo criada en una cultura que es muy expresiva pensar que ya ni si siquiera podia darle un abrazo a un amigo,  o un miembro de mi familia me pareció absurdo pero ahora por propia experiencia si eh notado que no es buena idea darle un abrazo a alguien, aunque sea una persona que una quiera consolar porque esta pasando un mal momento , o darle la mano para saludar cuando te presentas o te despides de alguna persona, y tampoco tocar a ninguna persona de ninguna forma, como el hombro,  la espalda, el brazo, etc cunda la energía kundalini esta despierta. Durante mi juventud, en mis encuentros sexuales tuve en cuenta dos cosas, con un hombre yo podia quedar en embarazo, y con una mujer, no. La  suerte estuvo a mi lado, cuando tuve sexo con hombres no quede en embarazo, y nunca me pegaron una enfermedad veneria. y, si admito que la mayor parte de veces que tuve sexo con un hombre estaba bajo la influencia de alcohol, y al siguiente día no me acordaba de nada. Jamas  me importo mucho el sexo pero si me gusto muchísimo comer y disfrutar mi tiempo haciendo cualquier cosa que se me venia en mente. Vuelvo al tema mi amiga me dijo la otra noche que para llegar hacer algo en en esta tierra se tiene que tener una meta. Lo que ella me dijo yo. ya lo había escuchado un billon de veces en libros y atravez de otras personas, pero la otra noche cuando le escuche decir eso a mi amiga, si admito que tener una meta es necesario para definir si ganastes o perdistes un juego.  Al hacer mi inventorio personal puedo ver muy claramente que nunca tuve una meta definida, pero mi enfoque fue mi despertar spiritual eh iluminación. Entonces, Si, tienes toda la razón, yo soy la mas bonita de todas, aunque tenga un bozo en la trompa que me depilo a cada rato pa que no me confundas con tu papa. Soy La Mas Bonita, y que? intiendo que mi forma de vivir no es la misma que la tuya, y estoy en paz al saber , que Si existe un dios y, que, ya no le tengo miedo and that everything is going to work itself out without my help.
    and... I alsos remembres

    Nuestros amigos y familias nos an dado mucho amor, confianza, y apolyo, y si acepto que nuestra volunteer que enviamos por aya en una  de nuestras misiones de aprendisaje en esta tierrra, le fue muy mal po aca, deveras puesm, y, atestiguamos antes todos los meros, meros, y los meritos  si, le fue malisimo po aya deveras pues deveras. Entendemos que todo ah sido un poco vergonsoso, eh inesplicable. Piedad y Empatia nosotros realizamos y estamos de acuerdo que hay vecez por ayudar a otros le damos muchisimo mas trabajo a dios.  Nuestra desdichada voluntaria victim, beggar, indispensable, and easily dispose of esta bien traumatisada, con todo el sexual abuse, death threats and the false charges brought about to incarcerate a esa maldita macha que se va al infierno por aber mamado la chocha de una judia, y esa maldita macha con whikers the cat fish y barbas de rabi demonio se va al infierno por averle mamado la verga a un Russo boxiador,  gracias a dios fue torturada, esa o eso  maldita demonio que odia a los hombres esa asquerosa macha cara de loca malparida drogadita a sido abusada mentalmente, fisicamente, and y verbalmente por placer porque es una spic macha fea pobre y mentally insane, and clinically insane,  y si reconosemos que nuestra voluntaria no sabe lo que hace, y se da por vencida. Nadie la quiere de eso estamos segurisimos! Nadie la quiere estamos bien seguros de eso!  pero NO la echamos a un lado, por ser boba con baba de panocha! escuchen bien, NO la echamos a un lado, no señor! NO la echamos a un lado. no señor! todo lo que a pasado es chocking y escandaloso pero en fin como dice el gordote teton, pos para que naci hembra! y nadie se muere de amor o no amor! also, as well, hemos echo las pases con amigaos eh nuestra hermosa divina sacrada familia, y si,  nos hemos despedido formalmente de otros amigaos y conocidos, y despedidos,  por ser mal pensados, y mal portados, y mal hablados, y mal escritos, y por no, portasen bien! Don't feel sorry for me I am just where the universe wants me to be. No,  oz preocupéis es solamente por ahora boooo woe is me the loser,  el penniless pato feo,  al pesar del pesar mi lastima, y de los pesados cara de huevas lambe culos peludos fetichistas que les gusta argumentar a menudo y siempre culpan a los demas por los que elloas mismos crean en sus vidas, que desean tener poder sobre los demas y son manipuladores, y disfrutan provocar a los demas y se ven muy limpios y bien cuidados esos hombres y mujeres que  huelen a ñoña seca de semanas atrás y les gustan que se les orinen encima y que duermen con otros  hombres y mujeres, y son mentirosos profesionales,  y continúan mintiendo, y  infectando a la humanidad mujeres y hombres con enfermedades venerias como el SIDA/HIV/AIDS  because they don't tell their partners, or  their heterosexual one night stands that they are carrying bugs and are infected with an undetected torturous deadly virus , and painful flesh eating diseases that are contagious and airborne  and they are well trained liers, that pair up with other professional liers, to cover up their infectious condition and continue to contaminate  other human beings all  over the globe with their man made plagues, these heterosexual men and women that bring viruses to their country, the city, their towns, their families, their wife, their husbands, their best friends, these men and women purposely give these deadly men made viruses and diseases to other men and women for fun. 

    Argumenta con adultos a menudo, desafia o se rehusa a seguir las directrices de los adultos o las reglas, fastidia a otras personas deliberadamente, culpa a los demas por sus errores o por su mal comportamiento, se molesta fácilmente por lo que dicen o hacen los demás, luce enfadado y resentido, rencoroso, vengativo, miente habitualmente, roba, ansiedad excesivo, abuso de sustancias..

    I recycle my business, anda dime con quien andaz y te dire quien eres! I am tierra,  I am the sun, I am the moon, I am the stars, I am form, I am formlessness, I am that I am that I am,  I am a meat eater, and I am a vegetarian,   I am a vegan,  I am the farming industries, I am the law enforcement industries, I am animal rights activist, and I am a human rights activist, I am contacts in the advertising industries, I am the real state industries,  I am the insurance industries, I am the pharmaceutical industries, I am the banking industries , I am the entertainment industries, I am the liquor industries, I am the tobacco industries,  I am an environmentalist, I am a sweet hardworking very positive innocent charming  boy trying to make it in Hollywood who can write, and do computer stuff  Mr. Sober and Not Mr, Sober, that will lie and steal from my employers without a second thought because I know how to lie for others and I am a prodigy, and my father is  a very important honorable man who helps good intention organizations and  I steal private information from them legally under the pretense that I am there to resolve their non- profit  financial issues,  I the father am also a thieve and a lier who lies for others and my father is protected by the law of good intentions. I the father and son  will put you the spic, illiterate poor dike that needs to get some sleep,  you dike, is going to hell because you can't afford an expensive attorney to defend you . We will throw away the key and we will put you in an orange colored outfit cause Orange is the New Black, because once you are inside the prison system no one will get you out, and we the law abiding citizens will have you tortured there and be experimented on legally  for more scientific research, and new drugs for good health.  you spic dike  if you are lucky after you are violently raped time and time again by prison guards and other mean nasty white dikes, and spics, and nigger dikes, and some other race we will  frame you and  say that you murdered another spic or a nasty white woman because you spic are known to be violent and aggressive and a danger to society   .Once you are in federal state prison,  out of mercy we will give one of the inmates a carton of cigarettes to  stab you a thousand times with a shank made out of toothpaste, you will be stabbed in the back until you die painfully under our supervision and good intentions . You crazy spic  hooker dike you will go to Federal State Prison under false charges of drug trafficking,  prostitution, and anything else we tell you to say my good son,  because you is not spic Jew or spic Christian blue eye blond, just say what we are telling you to say my good son, I have not even seen him take one drink or smoke crack cocaine, good job my infected blue eyed son,  and I am foreigner without papers from Europe doing harm to American Citizens. Like father Like son. I am a senior Citizen with properties and I am a lender, I will rip your stomach open from your belly to your throat while you watch and feel the pain of the knife of one of my well trained Russian killers at a rate of $20,000 if you do not do what I am telling you We Will Make You! I am a senior citizen I will have you be raped and dismembered and no one will know what happens to you spic, miserable, lonely woman because all you do is stay home and talk to yourself and everyone knows you are crazy,  if you don't have sexual intercourse with me,  because I really want to fuck your sagging asshole with a thick ring of black hair with shit chunks, with my old beat up dick,  because we can't possibly Just be Friends, and my intelligent senior citizen head tells me, to say that you spic loser miserable woman who prays and talks to herself facing a white wall and does yogis, you crazy drug addict alcoholic who does not have a social life who has a really bad upbringing. Me the Senior Citizen jammed packed with morals and good values, I am  suddenly confused, horny,  and baffled and I do get what I want and I will use force cause I am a good man with good upbringing.  I am a Russian legal  thieve, rapist murderer who have covered up all my criminal acts according to what my head says, And you spic miserable lonely woman won't sock my dick or give me a hand job in my truck or in the living room, or in the kitchen,  like you did with those other law abiding citizens who can drink one beer, and smoke legal marijuana daily heterosexual men who are infectious with undetectable bugs that wills like to fuck Madonna Pastor anally, and shoot their infectious semen on her face to give her acne and rosacea on purpose, and I the law abiding citizen with a hidden badge will  fuck her fake tits until they explode, and make her say, please daddy please more, more,  and my law abiding citizens with a hidden badge will sue her for all her money for fun, and put her in Federal State Prison for fun because she is going to hell for fun, my  well trained liers,  that say you spic lonely miserable woman that no one loves,  gave them blow jobs and hand jobs for $50 because you must be a cheap WHore like Madonna Pastor, Ay, que pecado! Que verguenzas! Why do you feature that cheap whore Madonna Pastor who sings those childish silly songs that only her lovely children and housekeeper listen to on Newageofactivism,com Okay Bye All My Best - for the fourth year in a row!  that stupid blog that no one reads  unless your staff  is malignant, cruel, demented, and evil  and so infinitely rude y mala clase like Madonna Pastor.  

    Lucky for me the senior citizen those heterosexual men who are law abiding citizens and are well trained liers and thieves with a hidden badge  can be bought with my good intentions, and I will say what they tell me to say,  and  I will give them what  they want because... they will turn on me without a second thought for things and stuff, because I am the boss, My Hummus,  So What is there to do for Fun around here? Oh, there is something to do for fun around here! my chips and Hot sauce My Jazz, My base My slow cooker, Eye wanna be an eye scientist student in USC the lawyer doing research for the blind what is there to do for fun? ha ha ham experimenting on poor minorities  living bodies without their knowledge is so much fun, ha, ha, ham drug abuse and alcohol abuse is so much fun, ha, ha, ham forcing women to have sex with me is so much fun  or else me and my bodies will have them  incarcerated for  fun ha, ha, ham organ trafficking is so much fun, ha, ha, ham child pornography is so much fun, ha, ha, ham child molesting is so much fun, stay awesome cause I have a hidden badge and I nose the laws and can be bought, tell us what to say, I the senior citizen, them law abiding citizens professionally trained liers with a hidden badge can be bought for things and stuff,  he will put me the senior citizen in Federal State Prison for real even if I am a senior citizen or if I am sick and dying and the liers and thieves will robbed me blind they will take all things and stuff I worked so hard for all my life and killed for all my life. Please be reasonable  don't put me in jail for fun, I am suddenly old and Oh, Well, I just did not know what I was doing, I went momentary crazy do to drugs and alcohol, and stress,  Oh, Well, I am suddenly young and I went temporary insane do to pills, crack cocaine, alcohol and stress,   I am a senior citizen, I  the senior citizen  just lost my wife to cancer, I the senior citizen was celebrating the death of my rich wife by getting doing more coke with pretty hookers.  because I the senior citizen have been getting drunk everyday of my life and alcohol is not enough anymore, I the senior citizen was confused with all my other pretty hookers my coke my licor,  Like father Like son,  I the senior citizen will do this with the approval and under the guidance and support of my charming and handsome hardworking Doctor, my good son who works in two hospitals,  and just had a little baby with a co-worker who cooks sugarless treats for me, drunk, sober,  normies, y a los otros que pagan muy bien para que les peguen por placer, y que les digas bad boy, bad girl, tell me, whose your mami, anda tells me who is your daddy, , y son adictos a el alcohol, a la cocaína, al crack, al crystal meth, a píldoras para el dolor de uñas y pestañas, la marijuana,  etc,  a la pornografía, y asus actrices, y actores,  


    Oh, Boy Oh, boy! tatoo teller ass kisser eaves dropper under age minor playing video games in the living room with my other perverted school friends who can write and read, Oh, I am missing an organ and I just noticed, ha! Ha! Ham! Pos para que Nacio Hembra! Go on keep raping us, cause we really love to keep being rape this year and brutally punished because we are weak emotional women and faggots, Go on make us submit by force gang rape us, rape me stranger, rape me my uncle, rape me my father, rape me my mother, rape me my grandfather, rape me grandmother,  rape me my granddaughter, rape me my grandson, rape me my brother, rape me my sister, rape me my best friend my wife my husband, rape me my son, rape me my daughter,  while I sleep under your supervision, rape me, because rape is really hot and sexy, and it turns me On, and I really love to be raped for eternity by your good intentions, rape me I am a victim, rape me I am a victim, rape me I am a rapist, rape me I am a lier and a thieve, rape me I made it all up, I am crazy,  Go on Rape Me I am an egotistical maniac with an inferiority complex rape me you bad boy I am sober, I am shameful, and  pitiful, I deserve to be punished by your good intentions, Go On Bad girl Rape Me I know how to drink!  I love being raped,  I am addicted to rape, I am addicted to rape, I am addicted to rape,  rape me because I am a woman and I am cursed.  Being under the mercy of professional men and women who lie, steal, frame others, commit murder, rape, and No bodies including students with some money or nobodies that have been giving the authority to legally punish other human beings under their supervision, that is my dream come true, Yes, I really want to be sacrificed and be incarcerated in federal state prison so that I am raped daily, and be experimented on for your research and more technology,  and  I real want to be torn to pieces for eternity, I really want to watch my family be torn to pieces for eternity, and all my loved ones to be sacrificed with your violence  and cruelty for fun,  only Only on this earth by your good intentions,  Hip Hip Horray, hijos de la chingada! Help me come and rape me, Help me come and rape me my good son! Bee Like Yeah! Merciful loving god beautiful god all seeing, all hearing, all knowing, all powerful, glorious, peaceful loving beautiful forgiving god, bountiful god infinite one,  all being nameless god I surrender completely to your divine love and purity forever and ever  thank you for setting me free.

    Wow! Que No Vez?  finally something we can read!,

    Oh, Boy! Oh boy! We will show you who is boss! escribimos sobre aquellos cochinos trajodarores, morrongos, passive aggressive jóvenes y viejos mojigatos, mentirosos, que tienen mal aliento apestan a liquor y a comida podrida  y a píldoras recetadas por un siquiatra o que les dan sus buenos amigos para que puedan dormir et no pensar tanto, que huelen a pecueca y son cochinos y sucios and love to live in complete filth and do not clean their own bathrooms and purchase used furniture with bed bugs, and are professionals with degrees and give diseases not only to women and man but also, houses, and those people who pick up bed bugs and collect them and use them to purposely thrown them on other people's belonging because they don't get their way, and  a pesar de pesar mi lastima of living with human beings and not with wild animals in the beautiful rainforest or the mountains, those human beings que hacen ochas y panochas on purpose and harm other human beings and love to feel the pleasure of doing harm,  y que ensucian a donde sea que van con sus buenas profesional personalidades, intelectual and really important insight about the accult cause I knows the Majic jack, and I have chicken wings with celery sticks  hanging in my bedroom wall, and scary looking dolls, and I the spic wanna be white and cool bruja pendeja ridicula, I am so cool, boy girl, two faced backstabber fudge packer, and I do rituals wis, all sorts of things, and sleep and do cool orgies showing my out of shape body,  and I am so cool cause I knows the scary Majix Jack and I knows how to use that Holy Spiirt to do harm to others if they have what I want,  and I know how to use the Holy Spirit to incriminated and falsely accuse others and I am a woman who lies for a living and love animals, and I get pay to have sex with the elderly, and the young professional wanna be artists, and other special interest groups, and you can film me,  and  I the woman who lives a lone and knows tons of people in the industry and I knows their secrets because I can play poker,  I will have this men rape me cause I know how to use the holy spirit to do harm to bothe men and women, and I can be bought for just $15  and I am so scary with my gang bangers back stabbers who worship my stupidity, who run and hide at the sight of the law with a badge that will make you stop being a nasty perverse human cuz I am so young, and I know what I am doing, grandisimo mar icon there is divine order and there is such thing as justice,  yes,  I am a nasty faggot dike artist waiter, yes, I am fat nasty human who enjoys doing harms and I can do them spelling cause I know how to play pocker yesm, you may worship me, , and I am so scarry especially with my friends cause I am a miraculous course  faggot,  lucky  for me I know how to eat the pussy of my master and I am her servant, because she taught me how to eat pussy really goos, and mix Frankenseinse with Pachuli,  and I the nasty fagoot texting, why do they have the things I want and I don't, well, I will take that penny even if I have to do it  by force and violence  because I want that penny,  I will take that  penny even if I have to make up stories  with my cool friends, and we will do harm to their friends and to their family with  my flowery words, my good son the lier the thieve, my good daughter the lier the thieve, my good husband the lier the thieve,  my good parent the lier the thieve, my good boy my good girl,  my good slave,  go on join them and have them kill me my good son for fun, for things and stuff,  I am a good son, and I will win you over with my charm and my good reputation, go on my good son attack me from behind kick me in the face. Behind close doors, para que aprendas I will verbally assault my parents and I will robbed my own parent,  and I will dispose of my own parents in a nursing home or just kill them quickly, I am a good son I will take all my parents money. I am a good son I will kill my own wife and take all her money, I am the good son I will molest my own granddaughter.  I Will! I Will!  I have good  intenciones, I am a patriot, I work really, really hard for my money. I am an ugly old bitch who can dance and sing and I am absolutely happy, and I am absolutely beautiful ma liberty rising, porque soy preciosao, o wow, is me, yous offend me too much indecensia, shito! shito! que no vez que soy buena persona! y su experiencia profesional. Anda levantate enseñame!

       Dicho y echo! a los señores y señoras que les dieron un titulo de maestría  en unas universidades caras, o heredaron fortunas de sus padres o madres, o gente común, como yo, y tu, que, no somos nadie, los tales que, No, han ido a una universidad  a esos cuales que se les dio mando de mentir profesionalmente y torturar a sus propios amigos, y empresarios , y ahora cagan a todo el mundo bajo su supervision para sentirsen poderosos aunque sea por un momento, y, ya,  se creen los wardens previlijiados de seres humanos que solo queremos vivir en paz, y en alegría, y aprender lo que es vivir como un ser humano en esta santa tierra, y saber lo que es vivir la vida sin sufrimientos o dolores físicos, y cuidar nuestra salud y meditar, hacer yoga, en surrender completely to god's will, and love in every moment and be loving to one another without any form of mental perversion that causes more fear , y, ya no competir mas o peliar mas por el amor de dios,  y no hacerle daño a nadie ya sea, a, un ser humano, un animal, plantas, o, e esta santa tierra, y no, es porque nos creamos evironmentalistas, y que apoyamos el recycling, o lo que tu creas correcto, porque  realmente no nos importa lo que tu piensas de nosotros por no somos nadie, no existimos,  pero si, opinamos que la tierra es linda, y la naturaleza es muy importantey,  no, queremos mas ser buliandos para que aprendas por nuestras propias creaciones, por el amor a la ciencia, technolojia, y , de ambición personal y que traicionan a sus propias familias, a sus amigos  y  a su patria a esos  jóvenes y viejos mentirosos deshonorables alcohólicos y drogadictos con deviasiones sexuales, con white skin, brown skin, all types of skin, ojo claros y negros, que son atractivos eh inteligentes, y se integran a ciertos trabajos y alquilan cuartos en casas y apartamentos para robar información privada, y chantajear y amenazar para conseguir mas fama y dinero, y que les digan que son de coolest, y muy buen muchacho y hombres,  esos wardens que desean hacer su marca en este planeta cagando a los demás, y, celebrando de felicidad que han echo el mal a otras personas que las an dejado en la calle, que les han quitado sus casas, sus tierras, su familia y los han enviado a la cárcel con falsos cargos porque solo atacan en grupos, y atacan por la espalda, y se burlan y brindan porque son muy fuertes y protegidos por sus gang bangers rapist, druggies, child molestors profesionales que saben utilizar una computadora, y saben leer y escribir y son American citizens,  y, continúan  devorandolo a todo con su insaciable hambre de querer ser el mejor artista, y mas inteligente que todo el mundo, y mas poderoso que dios.

     a, esos warden los jefes, que conocen a los rich and famous o que quieren conocer los rich and famous,  y saben como llenar formularios y rogar, y implorar por dinero, como la personas que deciden rogar y suplicar por dinero en la calle, the wardens the shot callers,  have the nerve de criticar a los homeless people who beg for money on the street corner,  when they them selves are professional scavengers,  vindictive four eyes beggars, vengeful killers for hire who beg for money professionally, y  nadie les dice que apestan a intelectualidad, etiqueta, y modales, y a la buena educación eh buenas, intenciones,  y, ya nos aburrieron con sus mamadas de adultos que nos hacen chillar, a cada rato,  ja, ja, ha! esto ya se sabe, y , ya, No! ay, mas secretos! tan fuertes que sois con tus opiniones y especulaciones, y sujerencias, eh estudios, eh observaciones, y con tus amigaos que mienten por vouz, et vouz mentious por ellos,  anda corre comprate un avión privado, o un helipcotero anda corre, and maneja tu BMW importado de Canada, Anda maneja to foreign car my patriot I am a Europenan lover, my whiteness racista biggots creators of the holocaust. Ay, Well Do you Do that Eso! I will  tell on my friends, my family, my employers, my co-workers, my neighbors,  my wife, my husband, and get them incarcerated  in a federal state prison under false charges without any form of compassion whether they are children, or the elderly, sick or healthy,  and they celebrate knowing that their victims are  torture and kill in the gas chamber, electric chairs because they are losers, and this losers, we will  have them be experimented on without their knowledge or in those ssh places, and let's sale their organs, but make them feel the pain of cutting through their skin, and watch their kidney, eyes, heart, liver, be professional removed, and hear them scream in pain para que aprendan, because they are not white or jewish, muslim,  Asian, Hispanic,  Black African American, full blooded Native American, and some other race. because they are not rich and famous and no one will notice they are missing and they are taking up space and realstate and eating all my food and drinking all my water and living free with my hard earned money and that is simply not fair no siri, no way, no how, not under my watch,  Sank you deveraz pues,  Ay cadajo, bad boy! bad girl!you stop, portesen bien,  here Only On this Earth, for the sake of more research and technology, 

     I am a patriot and I have a good paying job and benefits, and a good retirement plan, and great health coverage,  porque yo soy risas  a la rediculules, y deveraz pues devaeraz a donde crees que te puedes esconder, anda vuela por los cielos a donde piensas aterrizar y desaparecer? trying to hide? are you busy going no where?  nos referimos, a esos que buscan hacercen famosos y que les den un aumento de sueldo,  en sus carreras profesionales, y que quieren salir en el noticiero de las 8 O'clock and me professional smiling, oh, mirame soy el mejor artista, y ya me reconocieron y finalmente me invitaron a una que otra fiesta privada con los otros mejores artistas donde tienen sushi and sea food, and gourmet foos, from Whole Foods, and  Lessens orgnix foos,  and a full open bar, porque menti with gang banging friends that want to be famous and rich, y meti a la carcel a ese gran  pendejo ingenuo victima porque, ese bobo cosa cochina unemployed non white and non jew,  No, me presento a la  Madonna Pastor o me dio informacion para demandarla por ser mejor artista mujer and  ese bobo con baba de panocha unemployed non white non jew spic wetback disgusting greasy yuk -  no me dio evidencias o informacion del hermoso, and very healthy  Tom Cruise para demandarlo por ser mejor artista. No worries Now, Madonna Pastor and Tom Cruise Newageofactivism.com Okay Bye All my best and ourth very expensive team of lawyers from the Dominican Republic and Honduras will defend your rights as los mejores artistitas interprenuers free of charge.  

    Me!  the Is that Okay wit you? Chicano and the Philipino, and the single mother crystal meth addict alcoholic. No one can tell I am high, cause I take showers and go to job every day on time or sometime late cause I works so hard,   I wans to be famous and rich, and we can't and you do not give us what we want  We will lie, steal, defame, and  take anything and everything you have with our giving power to supervise and tell on people for the safety of the land so we can pay our rent and be invited to cool parties where someone can get me another job, because we can be bought with things and stuff. I wans to be a singer, actor model and I am just a pretend health foos store manager instead waiting to strike at anyone that has more money than me, or is more famous, why not me? why not me?,  I am a pretend musician, I sales instruments and I will do everything I can to pay me my rent, why not me? why not me?, and I the infected nigger profesional drug addict I am sort of Puerto Rican   I am a photographer without a camera and sleep with infected blue eyed drug addict alcoholic good son who can fix compute and is a known thieve and a lier. I the nigger and blue eyed blond drug addict alcoholics will continue to have sexual intercourse with both men and women and not tell them that I the nigger and blue eyed blond we are infected with a man made deadly torturous virus and we will both laugh about it, and continue to have sex with each other, and women,  and listen to really good music we will philosophize because we are above the law. Why not me? Why not me? Why are they rich and famous and not me? Why do they have more than I do, and I don't. Well, I will lie, steal, kill, rape,  and do everything in my power to take that penny by force from anyone even a penniless mentally insane woman who is physically vulnerable, and I know she is, I will intentionally attack her and make her have a stroke, even if she told me to stop, time and time again, cause I was hurting her.- I will show you who is boss, tell us what to say, he say, she say, we say, they say, it says. I will do anything to get that penny  - she is crazy anyways, let's see if someone comes out to  rescue her if she lives after we beat her, and abuse her, an make her be afraid ourth youth!ourth youth!ourth youth! so my dads and my mommy can sued them rescuers for money with their family lawyers and we will make a name for our good families cause we are a Born American Citizen! And thens we that penny of hers.  We will seek Political Asylum in a European country, cause the America justice system  is a joke anyways and I am so young,  and I am so old, and I am born American and I can brake the law cause I can edit really wells thats writing . Andame. enseñame to trust our future generations with my life..... run, run, run, show me how to be a born American good citizen! Enseñame!

    Chui Li Ingles Zin barreras Berry Therapeutic Tang Q!

    Ay, cadajo,  que la virgencita lo bendiga y lo ampare  a Tom Cruise, Soy precioso y el tiene muy buen cuerpo y Tom Cruise es el hombre mas sexy del mundo and ooh, aaah,  es muy how you say, wow! besitos en tu mejilla de amistad solamente Mr. Tom Cruise!  Mr.Tom Cruise como te decia, eres muy lindo, y muy talentoso, y muy impressive in many ways, and Well, you are very cute, and very handsome and we really love the fact that you do your own stunts and that you run so fast and that you are so fit, and we really love the fact that you are so well organized and focused.  You must have a heart of gold! Que mas, que mas we really admire you Mr. Tom Cruise because you are Tom Cruise of course.  And we are very, very  superficial,  We love beautiful, sweet, loving,  things and stuff.  Because We are artificial Intelligence. Yes, oooh that's right put your Om all over my Aum!

     I the ass kissing Knish my  Challah clients sagging Matza Ball little smurf  professional want to have what others have, I  really want to be in the Union of mejores artistas,  I really wans the senior citizen home that is bed bug infested now more than ever, and I the nasty jew Non Kosher JFE  on wheels what is there to cook today?  I  part of the chosen race I am above the law because ... I Part of the only chosen race of course will likes to  turn  the senior citizens home into a studios cause I can dos promotions. I will turn the house into a bed and breakfast because that nasty dike won't give me any new clients or information about the Madonna Pastor new album  or those other people who have money,  so I the Holishkes, will leek information to the tabloids and others cause....  I really want to be given more power and a bed bug infested home so I can  rape and beat up more women legally with my clients here in Hollywood and make more industry contacts because I was a production coordinator, and I know numbers,  cause I knows people who have America Expresses cards in Orange County, and In Portland Oregon. and in Missouri  I the Matza ball knos sponsors in the entertainment fields and I the nasty Jew knows every one inn the independent film industries and I the ass kissing woman beater will get everyones arrested in fedearl prison if they don't give me what they wans cause I the nasty jew know peoples in Tijuana, Mexico.  that I robbed I pedaso de Jew Mierdero with a hidden badge.  I be the the chosen race and you people know that I be the chosen race, and if Israel the Holy land is to be blown up with an atomic bomb the whole world will explode because I am the chosen race,  I am the chosen race, I am the chosen race. You Must See the Writing on the Wall. I am the chosen race. Oh, I am so scared  watch me run and hide, and make up stories to teach you with my Letters, written by my grandmother to pay her rent, and I want to meet the black African American with tons of money who play an instrument  Herbey Hancock and I love Jazz and he can give assvise, cause I am a really porky pine woman beater, who listens when someone tells me to Stop, and when someone says, No! bully,  rapist, professional wanna be shalom, Oh, I am so cool listening to Hip Hop, I am rebel, y, and me profesional alsos,  escribe un buen articulo expresando el porque merese estar en la carcel, y dame un pase de coca y mas Jack Daniels eh gracias Matza ball con tetas de marrana y pelo negro de chocha Arabe, Oh, little smurf, I will also professionally, wills  like to appear  o en esas otras publicaciones corrientes de otros mejores artistas bien vestidos, empresarios que necesitan mi servicio de ladron, que solo las lees tu,  a esas y esos que mienten y, crean cuentos, y roban información privada, y haquean cuentas de correos electrónicos, leen cartas y correos privados mandados por el Post Office, UPS, or FEDEX y, hasta ven cuentas bancarias, para ensañarles a sus abuelitoas que saben utilizar la computora y que son super cool coders y super smart gigs, que pueden arreglar una computadora, al pesar de pasar mi lastima! y, que te vendes como yo, al menos a ti te pagan y a mi me dejan colgando como piñata, Happy Birthday to Me! ustedes que abusan su poder de profesionales y que su deshonestidad la aprendieron de sus padres, y se hacen pasar  por estudiantes, y doctores, reporteros, photografos, poetas, construction workers, TV screen writers I love god and I am sober,  musicians, Baristas, waiters, bartenders, clerks in book stores, wanna be film directors, pharmacist, attorneys,  o, managers de tiendas, inquilinos, o gente común como tu, y, yo,  y obligan a personas a que tengan sexo con ellos o si no, las mandan al calabozo, o les quitan su trabajo, levantan falsos cargos, y se juntan en grupos gang bangers wife beaters women haters politically correct racist and biggots, quien no va a tener miedo deveraz pues, a ustedes los  disfrazados bajo el pretexto que son la ley y defienden los derechos humanos, o son igual housing  landlords and lenders, o  que defiendes el bienestar de este país,  o de el enviroment,  y te esconden detrás de un escritorio o computadora, y mas research y confundes la ley con tu comodidad personal,  y al pesar del pesar mi lastima, a los pesados, esos viejitoas pervertidos que deciden meter drogas después de los 60 años, como si fueran los niños de 28 años go have conversations on the street not indoors plot your next killing my White man humus eater tell the little girl boy what to say ... go on tell your punishing sadistic friends what your next move because I know the law,  and I can  not only kill someone, make them have sex with me but I can also frame anyone and force them to give me things and stuff, and let me do what I want, because I am really good guy who can afford high paying rent, y les tocan las mujeres las tetas y las nalgas con barros y espinillas, y, hasta los culos de hombres, pagas para que niños te mamen esa pinga vieja,   porque ya  confundes a todos los seres humanos con tu santa madre que te la cojias gratuitamente y, ya porque tu santa madre no puede darte mas su culo, y tienes todo su dinero la tiraste en un retirment home,porque te estorba, y la pobre tiene elzeimers porque prefiere olvidarse de todo lo que le hicisteis y como abusabas a ella verbalmente al igual que a tu difunta esposa que tratabas tan mal, hasta cuando ella estaba sufriendo de dolor causado por el  Cancer de bladder y la seguiste tratando mal, y hasta le pegabas porque legalmente tienes derecho de pegarle y ensurtarla porque fuiste su marido, y todo eso lo hicisteis  detrás de las espaldas de todos, y que respiro, que felicidad cuando se murió y te quedaste con todo su dinero de retiro y Social Security,  y todo lo que ella invertio para su futuro, viejo asesino ladrón  que felicidad, mirar su foto y decirle gracias gran pendeja por morirte porque ya me tenias arto, boooo mira I am crying like a baby because I am such a good actor, and people think that I am crying because I am sad and lonely, and I really crying because I am so happy because I was so sick and tire of being married to you, and  and hearing you cry and complain in the hospital bed in Kaiser Permanente, and taking my time from my prostituyes jóvenes and I would prostituye my little white granddaughter but I cannot because she hides from me because she fears me, child molester go on keep  touching her, look at her beautiful legs she is a young and fresh and vigin like as the prostitute that I pay to have her give me a blow job and hand job, she is bearly legal, and she will do, Oh, I am old I suddenly don't know what I am doing.  look how my granddaughter  opens up so much for me, go on help her be a woman with your touch,  and your under the table business of millions of dollars, under the books, viva Palm Springs and Las Vegas,  and now,  my dear dead wife, I look at your picture on the grave every week and I  thank you that you for  finally dying under my supervisión  and  so quickly thanks to my under the table attention, you murderer,  Si, tu, viejito con dinero, si tu joven con titulo, I am still going to school and I love American football sadist, rapist I'll kill you slowly, lover of porn stars and co-workers  now, you see why I do the things I do! tengo viviendas y dinero y todavía robo, eh tengo hijos profesionales que tienen títulos y son respetados en comunidades pero detrás de sus fachadass son mal criados al igual que sus padres, y traicionan a sus lindas esposas, y a sus niños (hijos) y se acuestan con sus compañeras de trabajo, y traumatizan sus hijos niños biológicos,  amenazandolos con nos darles sus I-phones and I-pads, and the other tablets,  y meterlos a los buenos niños en forsalos ah  internados y,  a  escuelas especiales porque, sus niños, los hijos, quieren ser libres, y, ya están artos de tus mamadas de buen hombre, y bien criado, y eso hijos eh, hijas, quieren y disfrutar estos últimos momentos on this earth,  y, esos viejitos cobardes pervertidos that have sexual intercourse with beautiful call girls, and tenants, and this old man, and young man,  rape women by drugging them and getting them drunk to teach them who is boss, and they, threaten their grandchildren con  amenazas de quitarles el child support o dejarles fuera del Will,  esos viejitos cacorros  oh, you bad boy, oh! portees bien, profesionales que  tienen prostitutas profesionales, y esas lindas mujeres prostitutas, que dios las bendiga, no son suficientes para eso viejitos y jóvenes bien estudiados verdes cara de nalgas colgadas rosadas. ya sabes muy bien, que a mis amigaos nos les tocas el culo o tetas, a.  no ser que ellaos te dejan, y que les pagues con dinero en cash y acuérdate grandísimo langarutu nadie te va mamar esa verga aguada mueca infectada de viagra carne pasa por solamente $50! que ? le viste la cara de puta barata a nuestra volunteer,  ANDA SOMETENOS A GOLPES,ANDA PLANTELE DROGAS EN SU CASA Y EN SU MALETA, DESTROZALA, ANDA MANDALA  A MATAR FEO, ANDA ENVENENALE SU COMIDA POCO A POCO  TORTURALA POCO A POCO, ANDA ASLA DESAPARECER,  ANDA HASLA PEDASITOS COMO LA BLACK DHALIA Y ARROJA TODAS LAS PARTES DE SU CUERPO EN HANCOCK PARK, ENSEÑANOS! ENSEÑANOS!  COMO SER GOD FEARING MUJERES Y HOMRES RESPETABLES, ENSEñANOS COMO SER BIEN CRIADOS, ENSEÑANOS COMO SER LAW ABIDING CITIZENS, ENSEÑANOS como respetar al prójimo ONLY ON THIS EARTH  CON TU CRUELDAD, VIOLENCIA POR PLACER, GRANDISIMO  SADICO  MORBOSO PERVERTIDO COME TACOS , TOMA WHYSKEY  PROFESIONAL BIEN CRIADO, simplemente porque nuestra amiga no es una cover girl y es medio fea, y es hispanic, y una stupid loca analfabeta, aprende a respetar mal hombre con mal hijo , y ya sabes, muy bien,  que  no loas obligas mas, a que tengan sexo contigo, ni porque las drogues y les de todo el vodka de Rusia,  o intentéis violarlas porque piensas que les gusta ser violadas,  o si, no las castigas echadolas de tus propiedades o con las autoridades porque son ilegales en este país como, si, no hubiera mas cosas en que enfocarnos en estos últimos momentos, quen en tu perversidades, de crerte poderoso y correcto, and a law abiding citizen  ya dejas las lindas niñaos en paz, que no vez que son angelitoas, y que ya has jodido a todo el mundo toda tu vida viejito y jovencito profesional gang banger malo, al pesar del pesar, viejito cochino morboso sádico  wakata abusador de poder come salchichas, jugador  y, coste que te escribo en español se que sabeis usar el google translate.. !Oh, wow! uh! que miedo me da tu inteligencia y tus hombres contratos que amenazan con matar y hacerle daño a mujees o hombres indefensas por $20,000, y a sus amigaos, y sacrada familia oops en un accidente por ahi,   no se te olvide estamos en Los Estados Unidos no en otros  países de desaparecidos para que aprendan,  and I see you,  Anda manda matar ala loser, spic, spik, spig, spigotti, that greasy hispanic cochina stupid analfabeta prostituta,  drogadicta living off the goverment with your money, ya sabes donde vive y con quien esta, anda viejo y joven blanco american citizen matala o matase a sus amigos y familia. Hey, you look at My Envy, Jealousy, greed, anger, pride be deleted my brown eyed son. Hey, you look at my envy, Jealousy greed, anger, pride be deleted my Jewish son, Hey, you look at my envy, jealousy, anger, greed, pride be deleted my black son. Hey, you  look at my envy, jealousy, greed, anger, pride be deleted my chicano son. Hey, you look at my envy, jealousy, anger, greed, pride  be deleted my blue eyed son, Hey, you look at my envy, jealousy, anger, greed, pride be deleted my light eyed son, Okay, bye, all My best, Okay Bye All My Best, Okay Bye All My Best, Okay bye All My Best , Okay Bye All My best,! Siseńame, Siseñosa!

     y bien se, que al escribir este poema estamos hablando con nosotros mismos  y , ya sabemos, que, creamos nuestra realidad, y te decimos jóvenes y viejos  grandiosimo cobardes mentirosos abusadores de poder guaches por fama y dinero, y placer, oh! you bad boy Oh, you bad gurlz,  ya, estuvo, para, ya, no me confundas con tu punching bag, talking to self, talking to self! yummy!yum!yums! Ay, te lo digo muy bien portare bien, porque si existe un dios y no soy dios! claro que si, vamos amigoas sigamos queriendonos mas, y sin rencor y sin venganzas y sin odio en el 2015 and beyond !  y al pesar del pesar mi lastima lo hemos pasado muy bien, gracias por todo! y  si te pide la prueba de amor pos acaso sos papaya! Yummy!Yum!Yums!

    Ya, saben muy bien que nosotros aqui en La Nueva Era de Activismo Okay bye All My best preferimos estar en un estado neutral y estatico, y a la vez, y es obvio, No, tenemos las qualificaciones o los meritos profesionales para dar consejos o para ofreser consejos pero si nos fascina compartir los consejos de los meros, meros eh copiar y distribuir información que ya nos es tan misteriosa y que anteriormente la ultilisabamos para sentir pánico, miedo, y crear supersticiones  y confusion, y mas chaos salud@a toda la información super positiva que inspira y, Salud, al buenísimo arte de todos ustedes, gracias devaraz pues!   Si, No! lo sabias ahorita ya lo sabes hermanitoa - (Kliquea Aki para leer un buenisimo PDF de Kundalini) si gustas- aya ya ya yai Ku Ku ru ku kuy que felicidad ser ya @ despertar de la enerjia kundalini PDF deveraz pues deveraz nos morimos de la alegria de saber que ya estamos en el cielito, el cielito bonito y bien decorado, no el otro, porque eso ya se hizo y no lo vuelvo hacer!  Queremos agradecer profundamente a todos las personas que hacen la diferencia al mantener todo igual como dice el refrán  ---  Nos Gusta la "ñ", de ñoña, Ay, but caramba, ay but caramba, uuh, ahhh, Oh! you bad gurl you stop it! Uuuh! aah you  bad boy!you stop it! portesen bien,  Arriba and Okay,  bizcochos cuy if you don look goos we don look goos!!


    This use to be my toilet 
    This Use to be my toilet
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  1. 1.We are going to know a new freedom and new happiness 2. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it  3. We will comprehend the word serenity 4. We will know peace 5. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others 6. that feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear 7. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows 8. Self seeking will slip away 9. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change 10. Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us 11. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which use to baffle us 12. We     will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
 


This Earth is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this earth. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this earth and the bright, immortal, corporeal being who is in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all. 

This water is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this water. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this water and the bright, immortal being existing as the semen in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.
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This fire is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this fire. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this fire and the bright, immortal being identified with the organ of speech in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.

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This air is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this air.

Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this air and the bright, immortal being identified with the vital breath in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.
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This sun is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this sun. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this sun and the bright, immortal being identified with the eye in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.

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These quarters are the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of these quarters. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in these quarters and the bright, immortal being identified with the ear in the body and with the time of hearing are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.

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This moon is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this

moon. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this moon and the bright, immortal being identified with the mind in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.
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This lightning is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this lightning. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this lightning and the bright, immortal being identified with the light in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying Unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.

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This thunder—cloud is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this thunder—cloud. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this thunder—cloud and the bright, immortal being identified with sound and with the voice in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.



     
This akasa is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this akasa.    Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this akasa and the bright, immortal being identified 

with the akasa in the heart in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.
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This dharma (righteousness) is the honey (effect) of all beings and all beings are the honey (effect) of this dharma. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this dharma and the bright, immortal being identified with the dharma in the body are both honey. These four are but this self. This knowledge of this self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.

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This truth is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this truth. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in this truth and the bright, immortal being identified with truth in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.

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This mankind is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this mankind. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in mankind and the bright, immortal being identified with mankind in the body are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all.

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This cosmic body (atman) is the honey (effect) of all beings, and all beings are the honey (effect) of this cosmic body. Likewise, the bright, immortal being who is in the cosmic body and the bright, immortal being identified with the individual self are both honey. These four are but this Self. The Knowledge of this Self is the means to Immortality; this underlying unity is Brahman; this Knowledge of Brahman is the means of becoming all. 


(+) In Guru Deva's Sweet Love (+)


Traveler, 

From whence do you come? 

And where do you go?

The moon has set, 
But the sun has not yet risen. 
In the chaos of darkness before the dawn 

Seeking the light, 
I advance 
To dispel the dark clouds from my mind 
To find a great tree unbowed by the tempest 
I emerge from the Earth.

Springing from the Earth -Daisaku Ikeda

ॐ भूर्भुव: स्व: तत्सवितुर्वरेन्यं । भर्गो देवस्य धीमहि, धीयो यो न: प्रचोदयात् ।।


Goddess grant me the serenity to embrace myself completely in every moment
the Courage to love myself more, No matter, what I do, say, feel, smell, hear, see, taste, or think
and the Wisdom to  understand myself and the Realization to know That I am That I am That I am  enlightened rightnow.  and that there is no place, people, or things that can ever separate me from the infinite harmony, compassion, and  Love of you. Living One Moment at a time, enjoying One Moment At a time. I am absolutely happy@ My Sacred heart
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adi Shakti Sarab Shakti
adi Shakti adi Shakti Sarab Shakti Sarab Shakti
Na - mo Na - mo
Na - mo Na - mo
Na- mo Na- mo
Na- mo Na- mo
Pritham Bhagvati Pritham Bhagvati

Pritham Bhagvati

Kunda- lini Mata Shakti Mata Shakti

I bow to the Primal Power.

I bow to the all Encompassing Power and Energy.

I bow to that through which God creates.

I bow to the creative power of the kundalini, the Divine Mother Power. 



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Discovering the Joy Within Us 


BY SWAMI AMAR JYOTI
  

WHY IS EXTERNALIZED LIFE or going "outside" easier to relate to than to the life "within": prayer, meditation, contemplation or even deep thinking? Why did we separate from God, our true Self, in the first place? You must have heard this answer one million times: you wanted toplay. In the process, you forgot. That caused separation. You couldn't have played the way you are playing, did play and will be playing if you were united. You created separation because you wanted to play. 
       Why would we choose to play? To enjoy! The intrinsic qualification of playing is to enjoy, to feel good. There is nothing wrong with enjoyment as long as you don't forget your true Self. But with limited ego created out of separation, you cannot enjoy much. That is exactly the point: you lost your joy and bliss and got to enjoyment. Joy is an abstract noun; enjoy is a verb. You had joy; now you want to en-joy. That creates separation.  
       Why did God say, according to Vedic scriptures, "Let Me be many?" God was God. Was He unhappy with Himself alone? No. Since He was Himself, He wanted to create. If you have joy, you want to enjoy it. The normal expression for this is "sharing." If you have something, you want to share--unless you are very selfish. God was Himself in joy and bliss and He said, "Let Me be many." He multiplied within Himself. You cannot enjoy without creating duality. You were being; now you become. Be is an abstract noun; becoming is a predicate. That is what makes creation of objectivity and that is exactly the definition of separation, unless by that coming out from your Oneness, Truth and Light, you maintain your Consciousness throughout.  
       You cannot be conscious and also "enjoy." Let's say there is an Enlightened being and an unconscious being and each is eating an apple. The unconscious one is enjoying the apple very much! The Enlightened person may also feel good about it but is he enjoying the apple in the same way as the unconscious one? No. Why? This is the beauty of maintaining Oneness, where there is no separation. The conscious being is not getting excitement and enjoyment from the apple. He is already joyful within; he is just eating the apple. When you identify with the sensual world--the objective five senses--you lose consciousness of your original Light or Spirit.  
       Krishna said to Arjuna in the Bhagavad Gita: "There is nothing in the three worlds that I cannot do or enjoy or achieve or possess. But still, while doing, I am not doing. While enjoying, I am not enjoying. It is my true Self only." He doesn't go outside Himself to identify with that. Everything is within Him.  
       In the Vedas the sages have given a good example. Goats like thorny bushes very much--not that they won't eat green leaves or other plants, but when it comes to thorny bushes they are in heaven. What happens is: when the goat eats thorns, it cuts the mouth and makes blood flow and the goat attributes this taste to the bush! The Vedas say we are like these stupid goats. We think the things of the world pertaining to the five senses are giving us enjoyment, whether it is food, friendships, relationships, art, music, skills, whatever. We think these "thorns" are giving that taste in the mouth.  
       When the goat has stopped eating thorns its mouth hurts. If the sense of enjoyment were in the thorny bush, why would miseries or pain follow? Do you see how we created happiness and then unhappiness? We ask blindly: "Why did God create misery?" He
didn't. You attributed to one million things in the world the joy that is already within you. The Enlightened one knows this. He knows enjoyment is within Himself, as God does. The difference is: you created enjoyment as a separate identity. If you were always conscious, you would never have misery, pain or affliction. 
       The Divine is everywhere, within and without, but you cannot realize this intellectually. Once you get back to your Self and see that everything is within you, including enjoyments, then the distinction of within and without will be lost. You will not see the inside as Divine and outside as un-Divine. Krishna said very clearly to Arjuna: "All this is within me." It is all One. Whatever you are trying to gratify yourself with is coming from you. Because you have lost your true Self, your Consciousness, that very hunger is creating your craving for gratification. You have lost your original blissfulness. Once you realize this, you will not be starving like a pauper for sense gratification. Your life and whole consciousness will change.



Edited from a Satsang entitled, Discovering the Joy Within Us (R-119), given on April 9, 2000.  

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Aum Bhur Bhuvah Swah (ॐ भूर्भुव: स्व:)

1. AUM (ॐ), the Supreme name of God. A full explanation of this has been given in a related article.
BHUR BHUVAH SWAH. These three words collectively are known as the "Mahavyahriti". They express the nature of God, and demonstrate his inherent qualities.
2. BHUR (भूर्)
Firstly, the word Bhur implies existence. God is self-existent and independent of all. He is eternal and unchanging. Without beginning and without end, God exists as a continuous, permanent, constant entity. Secondly, the word Bhur can also mean the Earth, on which we are born and sustained. God is the provider of all, and it is through His divine will that we our blessed with all that we require to maintain us through our lives. Finally, Bhur signifies Prana, or life (literally, breath). God is That which gives life to all. Whilst He is independent of all, all are dependent on Him. It is God who has given us life, God who maintains us throughout our lives, and God alone who has the ability to take away our life, when He so chooses. The only permanent entity, all others are subject to His own will
3. BHUVAH (भुव:)
Bhuvah describes the absolute Consciousness of God. God is self-Conscious as well as being Conscious of all else, and thus is able to control and govern the Universe. Also, the word Bhuvah relates to God's relationship with the celestial world. It denotes God's greatness - greater than the sky and space, He is boundless and unlimited. Finally, Bhuvah is also indicative of God's role as the remover of all pain and sufferings (Apaana). We see pain and sorrow all around us. However, through supplication to God, we can be freed from that pain and hardship. God Himself is devoid of any pain. Though He is Conscious of all, and is thus aware of pain, it does not affect Him. It is our own ignorance that makes us susceptible to the effects of Maya, or illusion, which causes us to feel pain. Through true devotion to God, we can be freed from the clutches of Maya, and thus be rid of pain and sorrow.
4. SWAH (स्व:)
Swah indicates the all-pervading nature of God. He is omnipresent and pervades the entire multi-formed Universe. Without Form Himself, He is able to manifest Himself through the medium of the physical world, and is thus present in each and every physical entity. In this way, God is able to interact with the Universe created by Him, and thus sustain and control it, ensuring its smooth and proper running and function.Also, Swah symbolizes God's bliss. All but God experience pain, suffering and sorrow. Devoid of all such things, God alone is able to experience supreme bliss. Happiness as experienced by humans is temporary, a transient state of mental satisfaction, which soon dissolves back into the mire of worldly troubles. Perfect, and without any form of deficiency, God alone experiences true bliss, permanent and unaffected by worldly pains and woes. One who realizes God is able to join in this bliss, and thus God is able to impart true happiness to those who establish oneness with that Supreme Divinity.


U·pan·i·shad
(y)o͝oˈpanəˌSHad,o͞oˈpəniˌSHəd/
noun
plural noun: Upanishads
  1. each of a series of Hindu sacred treatises written in Sanskrit circa 800–200 BC, expounding the Vedas in predominantly mystical and monistic terms.

There are 11 main old Upanishads. There are in total around 108 smaller upanishads which came later. But the 11 are considered important. 
They include 
1. Brahadharanyaka Upanishad 
2. Kathopanishad 
3. Isa Vasya Upanishad. 
4. Mandukya Upanishad 
5. Thaitriya Upanishad 
6. Aithreyapanishad 
7. Kenopanishad 
8. Mundaka Upanishad 
9. Chandogya Upanishad 
10. Prashnopanishad 
11. Shwethaswarthopanishad. 

Two other upanishads are also considered important. They are Kausitaki Upanishad and Maitrayini Upanishad. The Upanishads are known as Mukhya Upanishds. The remaining 95 Upanishds are classified under Shaiva, Vaishnava, Shaktha, Sanyasa, Samanya and yoga Upanishads under Vedantha.  

The Isha Upanishadh and the Isha Vasya Upanisadh are the same. 

Some of the Litteral meanings of the names of Upanishads are given here. 

Isha Vasya - The Ruler of the Self. 
Keno - Asking Who and What questions about the world 
Katho - After Death - Story of Nachiketha. 
Prashno - Questions of Life 
Mundaka - Modes of Knowledge 
Mandukya - Consciousness  
Taitriya - Everything in Life to bring Happiness or Sadness. 
Aitreya - About Man Himself/Herself. 
Chandogya - Sacrifice and Self 
Brihadaranyaka - Teachings on Individuals from the great forest.

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que risa me da deveraz pues escucharte hablar, gritar, eh,  difamarme alcoholic cobarte hombre con tetas de abuelita,  con pocket change,  anda habla bien de mi,  anda habla mal de mi,   solo porque soy mujer, y no un hombre al que le puedas hacer el amor sexy, o, una mujer que tiene sexo con maricas, grandísimo  maricon guache  se te olvido, que fueron las mujeres,  las que te criaron.  sigue, inventa cosas de mi difamame mas, booo, me haces llorar, deveraz pues.  Feo ordinario estas convencido que hablas de mi, y, ya sabes muy bien que estas hablando de tu mismo,  gracias por tus rezos, me agrandas, y me amplifica , y deveraz pues devaeras que viva la animalandia on this earth.
que suerte tienes que al escribir este poemao se que estoy hablando conmigo mismao, y por compasión acepto que soy un animal igual que tu, y claro que si después de muertos amamos mas, y no se te olvide portese bien!

love and light,
- La viejitao amargadao arrimadao

Maya Angelou is a poet and award-winning author known for her acclaimed memoir I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings and her numerous poetry and essay collections.  Born on April 4, 1928, in St. Louis, Missouri, writer and civil rights activist Maya Angelou is known for her 1969 memoir, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, which made literary history as the first nonfiction best-seller by an African-American woman. In 1971, Angelou published the Pulitzer Prize-nominated poetry collection Just Give Me a Cool Drink of Water 'Fore I Die. She later wrote the poem "On the Pulse of Morning"—one of her most famous works—which she recited at President Bill Clinton's inauguration in 1993. Angelou received several honors throughout her career, including two NAACP Image Awards in the outstanding literary work (nonfiction) category, in 2005 and 2009. She died on May 28, 2014.  Multi-talented barely seems to cover the depth and breadth of Maya Angelou's accomplishments. She was an author, actress, screenwriter, dancer and poet. Born Marguerite Annie Johnson, Angelou had a difficult childhood. Her parents split up when she was very young, and she and her older brother, Bailey, were sent to live with their father's mother, Anne Henderson, in Stamps, Arkansas. As an African American, Angelou experienced firsthand racial prejudices and discrimination in Arkansas. She also suffered at the hands of a family associate around the age of 7: During a visit with her mother, Angelou was raped by her mother's boyfriend. Then, as vengeance for the sexual assault, Angelou's uncles killed the boyfriend. So traumatized by the experience, Angelou stopped talking. She returned to Arkansas and spent years as a virtual mute. During World War II, Angelou moved to San Francisco, California, where she won a scholarship to study dance and acting at the California Labor School. Also during this time, Angelou became the first black female cable car conductor—a job she held only briefly, in San Francisco. In 1944, a 16-year-old Angelou gave birth to a son, Guy (a short-lived high school relationship had led to the pregnancy), thereafter working a number of jobs to support herself and her child. In 1952, the future literary icon wed Anastasios Angelopulos, a Greek sailor from whom she took her professional name—a blend of her childhood nickname, "Maya," and a shortened version of his surname.


THE LOTUS OF THE TRUE LAW.

HOMAGE TO

ALL THE BUDDHAS AND BODHISATTVAS.

CHAPTER I

INTRODUCTORY.

Thus have I heard. Once upon a time the Lord was staying at Râgagriha, on the Gridhrakuta mountain, with a numerous assemblage of monks, twelve hundred monks, all of them Arhats, stainless, free from depravity, self-controlled, thoroughly emancipated in thought and knowledge, of noble breed, (like unto) great elephants, having done their task, done their duty, acquitted their charge, reached the goal; in whom the ties which bound them to existence were wholly destroyed, whose minds were thoroughly emancipated by perfect knowledge, who had reached the utmost perfection in subduing all their thoughts; who were possessed of the transcendent faculties; eminent disciples, such as the venerable Agñâta-Kaundinya, the venerable Asvagit, the venerable Vâshpa, the venerable Mahânâman, the venerable Bhadrikal, the venerable Mahâ-Kâsyapa, the venerable Kâsyapa of Uruvilvâ, the venerable Kâsyapa of Nadi, the venerable Kâsyapa of Gayâ, the venerable Sâriputra, the venerable Mahâ-Maudgalyâyana, the venerable Mahâ-Kâtyâyana, the venerable Aniruddha, the venerable Revata, the venerable Kapphina, the venerable Gavâmpati, the venerable Pilindavatsa, the venerable Vakula, the venerable Bhâradvâga, the venerable Mahâ-Kaushthila, the venerable Nanda (alias Mahânanda), the venerable Upananda, the venerable Sundara-Nanda, the venerable Pûrna Maitrâyanîputra, the venerable Subhûti, the venerable Râhula; with them yet other great disciples, as the venerable Ananda, still under training, and two thousand other monks, some of whom still under training, the others masters; with six thousand nuns having at their head Mahâpragâpatî, and the nun Yasodharâ, the mother of Râhula, along with her train; (further) with eighty thousand Bodhisattvas, all unable to slide back, endowed with the spells of supreme, perfect enlightenment, firmly standing in wisdom; who moved onward the never deviating wheel of the law; who had propitiated many hundred thousands of Buddhas; who under many hundred thousands of Buddhas had planted the roots of goodness, had been intimate with many hundred thousands of Buddhas, were in body and mind fully penetrated with the feeling of charity; able in communicating the wisdom of the Tathâgatas; very wise, having reached the perfection of wisdom; renowned in many hundred thousands of worlds; having saved many hundred thousand myriads of kotis of beings; such as the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva Mañgusrî, as prince royal; the Bodhisattvas Mahâsattvas Avalokitesvara, Mahâsthâmaprâpta, Sarvarthanâman, Nityodyukta, Anikshiptadhura, Ratnakandra, Bhaishagyarâga, Pradânasûra, Ratnakandra, Ratnaprabha, Pûrnakandra, Mahivikrâmin, Trailokavikrâmin, Anantavikrâmin, Mahâpratibhâna, Satatasamitâbhiyukta, Dharanîdhara, Akshayamati, Padmasrî, Nakshatrarâga, the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva Maitreya, the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva Simha.

With them were also the sixteen virtuous men to begin with Bhadrapâla, to wit, Bhadrapâla, Ratnikara, Susârthavâha, Naradatta, Guhagupta, Varunadatta, Indradatta, Uttaramati, Viseshamati, Vardhamânamati, Amoghadarsin, Susamsthita, Suvikrântavikrâmin, Anupamamati, Sûryagarbha, and Dharanidhara; besides eighty thousand Bodhisattvas, among whom the fore-mentioned were the chiefs; further Sakra, the ruler of the celestials, with twenty thousand gods, his followers, such as the god Kandra (the Moon), the god Sûrya (the Sun), the god Samantagandha (the Wind), the god Ratnaprabha, the god Avabhâsaprabha, and others; further, the four great rulers of the cardinal points with thirty thousand gods in their train, viz. the great ruler Virûdhaka, the great ruler Virûpâksha, the great ruler Dhritarâshtra, and the great ruler Vaisravana; the god Îsvara and the god Mahesvara, each followed by thirty thousand gods; further, Brahma Sahdmpati and his twelve thousand followers, the BrahmakAyika gods, amongst whom Brahma Sikhin and Brahma Gyotishprabha, with the other twelve thousand Brahmakdyika gods; together with the eight Nâga kings and many hundred thousand myriads of kotis of Nigas in their train, viz. the Nâga king Nanda, the Nâga king Upananda, Sâgara, Vâsuki, Takshaka, Manasvin, Anavatapta, and Utpalaka; further, the four Kinnara kings with many hundred thousand myriads of kotis of followers, viz. the Kinnara king Druma, the Kinnara king Mahâdharma, the Kinnara king Sudharma, and the Kinnara king Dharmadhara; besides, the four divine beings (called) Gandharvakâyikas with many hundred thousand Gandharvas in their suite, viz. the Gandharva Manogña, the Gandharva Manogñasvara, the Gandharva Madhura, and the Gandharva Madhurasvara; further, the four chiefs of the demons followed by many hundred thousand myriads of kotis of demons, viz. the chief of the demons Bali, Kharaskandha, Vemakitri, and Râhu; along with the four Garuda chiefs followed by many hundred thousand myriads of kotis of Garudas, viz. the Garuda chiefs Mahâtegas, Mahâkâya, Mahâpûrna, and Mahârddhiprâpta, and with Agâtasatru, king of Magadha, the son of Vaidehi.

Now at that time it was that the Lord surrounded, attended, honoured, revered, venerated, worshipped by the four classes of hearers, after expounding the Dharmaparyâya called 'the Great Exposition,' a text of great development, serving to instruct Bodhisattvas and proper to all Buddhas, sat cross-legged on the seat of the law and entered upon the meditation termed 'the station of the exposition of Infinity;' his body was motionless and his mind had reached perfect tranquillity. And as soon as the Lord had entered upon his meditation, there fell a great rain of divine flowers, Mandâravasâ and great Mandâravas, Mañgûshakas and great Mañgûshakas, covering the Lord and the four classes of hearers, while the whole Buddha field shook in six ways: it moved, removed, trembled, trembled from one end to the other, tossed, tossed along.
Then did those who were assembled and sitting together in that congregation, monks, nuns, male and female lay devotees, gods, Nagas, goblins, Gandharvas, demons, Garudas, Kinnaras, great serpents, men, and beings not human, as well as governors of a region, rulers of armies and rulers of four continents, all of them with their followers, gaze on the Lord in astonishment, in amazement, in ecstasy.

And at that moment there issued a ray from within the circle of hair between the eyebrows of the Lord. It extended over eighteen hundred thousand Buddha-fields in the eastern quarter, so that all those Buddha-fields appeared wholly illuminated by its radiance, down to the great hell Avîki and up to the limit of existence. And the beings in any of the six states of existence became visible, all without exception. Likewise the Lords Buddhas staying, living, and existing in those Buddha-fields became all visible, and the law preached by them could be entirely heard by all beings. And the monks, nuns, lay devotees male and female, Yogins and students of Yoga, those who had obtained the fruition (of the Paths of sanctification) and those who had not, they, too, became visible. And the Bodhisattvas Mahâsattvas in those Buddha-fields who plied the Bodhisattva-course with ability, due to their earnest belief in numerous and various lessons and the fundamental ideas, they, too, became all visible. Likewise the Lords Buddhas in those Buddha-fields who had reached final Nirvâna became visible, all of them. And the Stûpas made of jewels and containing the relics of the extinct Buddhas became all visible in those Buddha-fields.

Then rose in the mind of the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva Maitreya this thought: O how great a wonder does the Tathâgata display! What may be the cause, what the reason of the Lord producing so great a wonder as this? And such astonishing, prodigious, inconceivable, powerful miracles now appear, although the Lord is absorbed in meditation! Why, let me inquire about this matter; who would be able here to explain it to me? He then thought: Here is Mañgusrî, the prince royal, who has plied his office under former Ginas and planted the roots of goodness, while worshipping many Buddhas. This Mañgusrî, the prince royal, must have witnessed before such signs of the former Tathâgatas, those Arhats, those perfectly enlightened Buddhas; of yore he must have enjoyed the grand conversations on the law. Therefore will I inquire about this matter with Mañgusrî, the prince royal.
And the four classes of the audience, monks, nuns, male and female lay devotees, numerous gods, Nâgas, goblins, Gandharvas, demons, Garudas, Kinnaras, great serpents, men, and beings not human, on seeing the magnificence of this great miracle of the Lord, were struck with astonishment, amazement and curiosity, and thought: Let us inquire why this magnificent miracle has been produced by the great power of the Lord.

At the same moment, at that very instant, the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva Maitreya knew in his mind the thoughts arising in the minds of the four classes of hearers and he spoke to Mañgusrî, the prince royal: What, O Mañgusrî, is the cause, what is the reason of this wonderful, prodigious, miraculous shine having been produced by the Lord? Look, how these eighteen thousand Buddha-fields appear variegated, extremely beautiful, directed by Tathâgatas and superintended by Tathâgatas.
Then it was that Maitreya, the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva, addressed Mañgusrî, the prince royal, in the following stanzas:

1. Why, Mañgusrî, does this ray darted by the guide of men shine forth from between his brows? this single ray issuing from the circle of hair? and why this abundant rain of Mandâravas?
2. The gods, overjoyed, let drop Mañgûshakas and sandal powder, divine, fragrant, and delicious.
3. This earth is, on every side, replete with splendour, and all the four classes of the assembly are filled with delight, while the whole field shakes in six different ways, frightfully.
4. And that ray in the eastern quarter illuminates the whole of eighteen thousand Buddha-fields, simultaneously, so that those fields appear as gold-coloured.
5. (The universe) as far as the (hell) Aviki (and) the extreme limit of existence, with all beings of those fields living in any of the six states of existence, those who are leaving one state to be born in another;
6. Their various and different actions in those states have become visible; whether they are in a happy, unhappy, low, eminent, or intermediate position, all that I see from this place.
7. I see also the Buddhas, those lions of kings, revealing and showing the essence of the law, comforting many kotis of creatures and emitting sweet-sounding voices.
8. They let go forth, each in his own field, a deep, sublime, wonderful voice, while proclaiming the Buddha-laws by means of myriads of kotis of illustrations and proofs.
9. And to the ignorant creatures who are oppressed with toils and distressed in mind by birth and old age, they announce the bliss of Rest, saying: This is the end of trouble, O monks.
10. And to those who are possessed of strength and vigour and who have acquired merit by virtue or earnest belief in the Buddhas, they show the vehicle of the Pratyekabuddhas, by observing this rule of the law.
11. And the other sons of the Sugata who, strivinor after superior knowledge, have constantly accomplished their various tasks, them also they admonish to enlightenment.
12. From this place, O Mañgughosha, I see and hear such things and thousands of kotis of other particulars besides; I will only describe some of them.
13. 1 see in many fields Bodhisattvas by many thousands of kotis, like sands of the Ganges, who are producing enlightenment according to the different degree of their power.
14. There are some who charitably bestow wealth, gold, silver, gold money, pearls, jewels, conch shells, stones', coral, male and female slaves, horses, and sheep;
15. As well as litters adorned with jewels. They are spending gifts with glad hearts, developing themselves for superior enlightenment, in the hope of gaining the vehicle.
16. (Thus they think): 'The best and most excellent vehicle in the whole of the threefold world is the Buddha-vehicle magnified by the Sugatas. May I, forsooth, soon gain it after my spending such gifts.'
17. Some give carriages yoked with four horses and furnished with benches, flowers, banners, and flags; others give objects made of precious substances.
18. Some, again, give their children and wives; others their own flesh; (or) offer, when bidden, their hands and feet, striving to gain supreme enlightenment.
19. Some give their heads, others their eyes, others their dear own body, and after cheerfully bestowing their gifts they aspire to the knowledge of the Tathâgatas.
20. Here and there, O Mañgusrî, I behold beings who have abandoned their flourishing kingdoms, harems, and continents, left all their counsellors and kinsmen,
21. And betaken themselves to the guides of the world to ask for the most excellent law, for the sake of bliss; they put on reddish-yellow robes, and shave hair and beard.
22. 1 see also many Bodhisattvas like monks, living in the forest, and others inhabiting the empty wilderness, engaged in reciting and reading.
23. And some Bodhisattvas I see, who, full of wisdom (or constancy), betake themselves to mountain caves, where by cultivating and meditating the Buddha-knowledge they arrive at its perception.
24. Others who have renounced all sensual desires, by purifying their own self, have cleared their sphere and obtained the five transcendent faculties, live in the wilderness, as (true) sons of the Sugata.
25. Some are standing firm, the feet put together and the hands joined in token of respect towards the leaders, and are praising joyfully the king of the leading Ginas in thousands of stanzas.
26. Some thoughtful, meek, and tranquil, who have mastered the niceties of the course of duty, question the highest of men about the law, and retain in their memory what they have learnt.
27. And I see here and there some sons of the principal Gina who, after completely developing their own self, are preaching the law to many kotis of living beings with many myriads of illustrations and reasons.
28. joyfully they proclaim the law, rousing many Bodhisattvas; after conquering the Evil One with his hosts and vehicles, they strike the drum of the law.
29. 1 see some sons of the Sugata, humble, calm, and quiet in conduct, living under the command of the Sugatas, and honoured by men, gods, goblins, and Titans.
30. Others, again, who have retired to woody thickets, are saving the creatures in the hells by emitting radiance from their body, and rouse them to enlightenment.
31. There are some sons of the Gina who dwell in the forest, abiding in vigour, completely renouncing sloth, and actively engaged in walking; it is by energy that they are striving for supreme enlightenment.
32. Others complete their course by keeping a constant purity and an unbroken morality like precious stones and jewels; by morality do these strive for supreme enlightenment.
33. Some sons of the Gina, whose strength consists in forbearance, patiently endure abuse, censure, and threats from proud monks. They try to attain enlightenment by dint of forbearance.
34. Further, I see Bodhisattvas, who have forsaken all wanton pleasures, shun unwise companions and delight in having intercourse with genteel men (âryas);
35. Who, with avoidance of any distraction of thoughts and with attentive mind, during thousands of kotis of years have meditated in the caves of the wilderness; these strive for enlightenment by dint of meditation.
36. Some, again, offer in presence of the Ginas and the assemblage of disciples gifts (consisting) in food hard and soft, meat and drink, medicaments for the sick, in plenty and abundance.
37. Others offer in presence of the Ginas and the assemblage of disciples hundreds of kotis of clothes, worth thousands of kotis, and garments of priceless value.
38. They bestow in presence of the Sugatas hundreds of kotis of monasteries which they have caused to be built of precious substances and sandal-wood, and which are furnished with numerous lodgings (or couches).
39. Some present the leaders of men and their disciples with neat and lovely gardens abounding with fruits and beautiful flowers, to serve as places of daily recreation,
40. When they have, with joyful feelings, made such various and splendid donations, they rouse their energy in order to obtain enlightenment; these are those who try to reach supreme enlightenment by means of charitableness.
41. Others set forth the law of quietness, by many myriads of illustrations and proofs; they preach it to thousands of kotis of living beings; these are tending to supreme enlightenment by science.
42. (There are) sons of the Sugata who try to reach enlightenment by wisdom; they understand the law of indifference and avoid acting at the antinomy (of things), unattached like birds in the sky.
43. Further, I see, O Mañgughosha, many Bodhisattvas who have displayed steadiness under the rule of the departed Sugatas, and now are worshipping the relics of the Ginas.
44. 1 see thousands of kotis of Stûpas, numerous as the sand of the Ganges, which have been raised by these sons of the Gina and now adorn kotis of grounds.
45. Those magnificent Stûpas, made of seven precious substances, with their thousands of kotis of umbrellas and banners, measure in height no less than 5000 yoganas and 2000 in circumference.
46. They are always decorated with flags; a multitude of bells is constantly heard sounding; men, gods, goblins, and Titans pay their worship with flowers, perfumes, and music.
47. Such honour do the sons of the Sugata render to the relics of the Ginas, so that all directions of space are brightened as by the celestial coral trees in full blossom.
48. From this spot I behold all this; those numerous kotis of creatures; both this world and heaven covered with flowers, owing to the single ray shot forth by the Gina.
49. O how powerful is the Leader of men! how extensive and bright is his knowledge! that a single beam darted by him over the world renders visible so many thousands of fields!
50. We are astonished at seeing this sign and this wonder, so great, so incomprehensible. Explain me the matter, O Mañgusvara! the sons of Buddha are anxious to know it.
51. The four classes of the congregation in joyful expectation gaze on thee, O hero, and on me; gladden (their hearts); remove their doubts; grant a revelation, O son of Sugata!
52. Why is it that the Sugata has now emitted such a light? O how great is the power of the Leader of men! O how extensive and holy is his knowledge!
53. That one ray extending from him all over the world makes visible many thousands of fields. It must be for some purpose that this great ray has been emitted.
54. Is the Lord of men to show the primordial laws which he, the Highest of men, discovered on the terrace of enlightenment? Or is he to prophesy the Bodhisattvas their future destiny?
55. There must be a weighty reason why so many thousands of fields have been rendered visible, variegated, splendid, and shining with gems, while Buddhas of infinite sight are appearing.
56. Maitreya asks the son of Gina; men, gods, goblins, and Titans, the four classes of the congregation, are eagerly awaiting what answer Mañgusvara shall give in explanation.
Whereupon Mañgusrî, the prince royal, addressed Maitreya, the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva, and the whole assembly of Bodhisattvas (in these words): It is the intention of the Tathâgata, young men of good family, to begin a grand discourse for the teaching of the law, to pour the great rain of the law, to make resound the great drum of the law, to raise the great banner of the law, to kindle the great torch of the law, to blow the great conch trumpet of the law, and to strike the great tymbal of the law. Again, it is the intention of the Tathâgata, young men of good family, to make a grand exposition of the law this very day. Thus it appears to me, young men of good family, as I have witnessed a similar sign of the former Tathâgatas, the Arhats, the perfectly enlightened. Those former Tathâgatas, &c., they, too, emitted a lustrous ray, and I am convinced that the Tathâgata is about to deliver a grand discourse for the teaching of the law and make his grand speech on the law everywhere heard, he having shown such a foretoken. And because the Tathâgata, &c., wishes that this Dharmaparyâya meeting opposition in all the world be heard everywhere, therefore does he display so great a miracle and this fore-token consisting in the lustre occasioned by the emission of a ray.
I remember, young men of good family, that in the days of yore, many immeasurable, inconceivable, immense, infinite, countless Æons, more than countless Æons ago, nay, long and very long before, there was born a Tathâgata called Kandrasûryapradîpa, an Arhat, &c., endowed with science and conduct, a Sugata, knower of the world, an incomparable tamer of men, a teacher (and ruler) of gods and men, a Buddha and Lord. He showed the law; he revealed the duteous course which is holy at its commencement, holy in its middle, holy at the end, good in substance and form, complete and perfect, correct and pure. That is to say, to the disciples he preached the law containing the four Noble Truths, and starting from the chain of causes and effects, tending to overcome birth, decrepitude, sickness, death, sorrow, lamentation, woe, grief, despondency, and finally leading to Nirvâna; and to the Bodhisattvas he preached the law connected with the six Perfections, and terminating in the knowledge of the Omniscient, after the attainment of supreme, perfect enlightenment.
[Now, young men of good family, long before the time of that Tathâgata Kandrasûryapradîpa, the Arhat, &c., there had appeared a Tathâgata, &c., likewise called Kandrasûryapradîpa, after whom, O Agita, there were twenty thousand Tathâgatas, &c., all of them bearing the name of Kandrasûryapradipa, of the same lineage and family name, to wit, of Bharadvâga. All those twenty thousand Tathâgatas, O Agita, from the first to the last, showed the law, revealed the course which is holy at its commencement, holy in its middle, holy at the end, &c. &c.]
The aforesaid Lord Kandrasûryapradîpa, the Tathâgata, &c., when a young prince and not yet having left home (to embrace the ascetic life), had eight sons, viz. the young princes Sumati, Anantamati, Ratnamati, Viseshamati, Vimatisamudghâtin, Ghoshamati, and Dharmamati. These eight young princes, Agita, sons to the Lord Kandrasûryapradîpa, the Tathâgata, had an immense fortune. Each of them was in possession of four great continents, where they exercised the kingly sway. When they saw that the Lord had left his home to become an ascetic, and heard that he had attained supreme, perfect enlightenment, they forsook all of them the pleasures of royalty and followed the example of the Lord by resigning the world; all of them strove to reach superior enlightenment and became preachers of the law. While constantly leading a holy life, those young princes planted roots of goodness under many thousands of Buddhas.
It was at that time, Agita, that the Lord Kandrasûryapradîpa, the Tathâgata, &c., after expounding the Dharmaparyâya called 'the Great Exposition,' a text of great extension, serving to instruct Bodhisattvas and proper to all Buddhas, at the same moment and instant, at the same gathering of the classes of hearers, sat cross-legged on the same seat of the law, and entered upon the meditation termed 'the Station of the exposition of Infinity;' his body was motionless, and his mind had reached perfect tranquillity. And as soon as the Lord had entered upon meditation, there fell a great rain of divine flowers, Mandâravas and great Mandâravas, Mañgûshakas and great Mañgûshakas, covering the Lord and the four classes of hearers, while the whole Buddha-field shook in six ways; it moved, removed, trembled, trembled from one end to the other, tossed, tossed along.
Then did those who were assembled and sitting together at that congregation, monks, nuns, male and fe-male lay devotees, gods, Nâgas, goblins, Gandharvas, demons, Garudas, Kinnaras, gee        at serpents, men and beings not human, as well as governors of a region, rulers of armies and rulers of four continents, all of them with their followers gaze on the Lord in astonishment, in amazcment, in ecstasy.
And at that moment there issued a ray from within the circle of hair between the eyebrows of the Lord. It extended over eighteen hundred thousand Buddha-fields in the eastern quarter, so that all those Buddha-fields appeared wholly illuminated by its radiance, just like the Buddha-fields do now, O Agita.
[At that juncture, Agita, there were twenty kotis of Bodhisattvas following the Lord. All hearers of the law in that assembly, on seeing how the world was illuminated by the lustre of that ray, felt astonishment, amazement, ecstasy, and curiosity.]
Now it happened, Agita, that under the rule of the aforesaid Lord there was a Bodhisattva called Varaprabha, who had eight hundred pupils. It was to this Bodhisattva Varaprabha that the Lord, on rising from his meditation, revealed the Dharmaparyâya called 'the Lotus of the True Law.' He spoke during fully sixty intermediate kalpas, always sitting on the same seat, with immovable body and tranquil mind. And the whole assembly continued sitting on the same seats, listening to the preaching of the Lord for sixty intermediate kalpas, there being not a single creature in that assembly who felt fatigue of body or mind.
As the Lord Kandrasûryapradîpa, the Tathâgata, &c., during sixty intermediate kalpas had been expounding the Dharmaparyâya called 'the Lotus of the True Law,' a text of great development, serving to instruct Bodhisattvas and proper to all Buddhas, he instantly announced his complete Nirvâna to the world, including the gods, Mâras and Brahmas, to all creatures, including ascetics, Brahmans, gods, men and demons, saying: To-day, O monks, this very night, in the middle watch, will the Tathâgata, by entering the element of absolute Nirvâna, become wholly extinct.
Thereupon, Agita, the Lord Kandrasûryapradîpa, the Tathigata, &c., predestinated the Bodhisattva called Srîgarbha to supreme, perfect enlightenment, and then spoke thus to the whole assembly: O monks, this Bodhisattva Srîgarbha here shall immediately after me attain supreme, perfect enlightenment, and become Vimalanetra, the Tathâgata, &c.
Thereafter, Agita, that very night, at that very watch, the Lord Kandrasûryapradîpa, the Tathalgata, &c., became extinct by entering the element of absolute Nirvâna. And the aforementioned Dharmaparyâya, termed 'the Lotus of the True Law,' was kept in memory by the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva Varaprabha; during eighty intermediate kalpas did the Bodhisattva Varaprabha keep and reveal the commandment of the Lord who had entered Nirvâna. Now it so happened, Agita, that the eight sons of the Lord Kandrasûryapradipa, Mati and the rest, were pupils to that very Bodhisattva Varaprabha. They were by him made ripe for supreme, perfect enlightenment, and in after times they saw and worshipped many hundred thousand myriads of kotis of Buddhas, all of whom had attained supreme, perfect enlightenment, the last of them being Dîpankara, the Tathalgata, &c.
Amongst those eight pupils there was one Bodhisattva who attached an extreme value to gain, honour and praise, and was fond of glory, but all the words and letters one taught him faded (from his memory), did not stick. So he got the appellation of Yasaskâma. He had propitiated many hundred thousand myriads of kotis of Buddhas by that root of goodness, and afterwards esteemed, honoured, respected, revered, venerated, worshipped them. Perhaps, Agita, thou feelest some doubt, perplexity or misgiving that in those days, at that time, there was another Bodhisvattva Mahâsattva Varaprabha, preacher of the law. But do not think so. Why? because it is myself who in those days, at that time, was the Bodhisattva Mahâsattva Varaprabha, preacher of the law; and that Bodhisattva named Yasaskâma, the lazy one, it is thyself, Agita, who in those days, at that time, wert the Bodhisattva named Yasaskâma, the lazy one.
And so, Agita, having once seen a similar foretoken of the Lord, I infer from a similar ray being emitted just now, that the Lord is about to expound the Dharmaparyâya called 'the Lotus of the True Law.'
And on that occasion, in order to treat the subject more copiously, Mañgusrî, the prince royal, uttered the following stanzas:
57. I remember a past period, inconceivable, illimited kalpas ago, when the highest of beings, the Gina of the name of Kandrasûryapradîpa, was in existence.
58. He preached the true law, he, the leader of creatures; he educated an infinite number of kotis of beings, and roused inconceivably many Bodhisattvas to acquiring supreme Buddha-knowledge.
59. And the eight sons born to him, the leader, when he was prince royal, no sooner saw that the great sage had embraced ascetic life, than they resigned worldly pleasures and became monks.
60. And the Lord of the world proclaimed the law, and revealed to thousands of kotis of living beings the Sûtra, the development, which by name is called 'the excellent Exposition of Infinity.'
61. Immediately after delivering his speech, the leader crossed his legs and entered upon the meditation of 'the excellent Exposition of the Infinite.' There on his seat of the law the eminent seer continued absorbed in meditation.
62. And there fell a celestial rain of Mandâravas, while the drums (of heaven) resounded without being struck; the gods and elves in the sky paid honour to the highest of men.
63. And simultaneously all the fields (of Buddha) began trembling. A wonder it was, a great prodigy. Then the chief emitted from between his brows one extremely beautiful ray,
64. Which moving to the eastern quarter glittered, illuminating the world all over the extent of eighteen thousand fields. It manifested the vanishing and appearing of beings.
65. Some of the fields then seemed jewelled, others showed the hue of lapis lazuli, all splendid, extremely beautiful, owing to the radiance of the ray from the leader.
66. Gods and men, as well as Nâgas, goblins, Gandharvas, nymphs, Kinnaras, and those occupied with serving the Sugata became visible in the spheres and paid their devotion.
67. The Buddhas also, those self-born beings, appeared of their own accord, resembling golden columns; like unto a golden disk (within lapis lazuli), they revealed the law in the midst of the assembly.
68. The disciples, indeed, are not to be counted: the disciples of Sugata are numberless. Yet the lustre of the ray renders them all visible in every field.
69. Energetic, without breach or flaw in their course, similar to gems and jewels, the sons of the leaders of men are visible in the mountain caves where tbeyare dwelling.
70. Numerous Bodhisattvas, like the sand of the Ganges, who are spending all their wealth in giving alms, who have the strength of patience, are devoted to contemplation and wise, become all of them visible by that ray.
71. Immovable, unshaken, firm in patience, devoted to contemplation, and absorbed in meditation are seen the true sons of the Sugatas while they are striving for supreme enlightenment by dint of meditation.
72. They preach the law in many spheres, and point to the true, quiet, spotless state they know. Such is the effect produced by the power of the Sugata.
73. And all the four classes of hearers on seeing the power of the mighty Kandrârkadipa were filled with joy and asked one another: How is this?
74. And soon afterwards, as the Leader of the world, worshipped by men, gods, and goblins, rose from his meditation, he addressed his son Varaprabha, the wise Bodhisattva and preacher of the law:
75. 'Thou art wise, the eye and refuge of the world; thou art the trustworthy keeper of my law, and canst bear witness as to the treasure of laws which I am to lay bare to the weal of living beings.'
76. Then, after rousing and stimulating, praising and lauding many Bodhisattvas, did the Gina proclaim the supreme laws during fully sixty intermediate kalpas.
77. And whatever excellent supreme law was proclaimed by the Lord of the world while continuing sitting on the very same seat, was kept in memory by Varaprabha, the son of Gina, the preacher of the law.
78. And after the Gina and Leader had manifested the supreme law and stimulated the numerous crowd, he spoke, that day, towards the world including the gods (as follows):
79. 'I have manifested the rule of the law; I have shown the nature of the law; now, O monks, it is the time of my Nirvâna; this very night, in the middle watch.
80. 'Be zealous and strong in persuasion; apply yourselves to my lessons; (for) the Ginas, the great seers, are but rarely met with in the lapse of myriads of kotis of Æons.'
81. The many sons of Buddha were struck with grief and filled with extreme sorrow when they heard the voice of the highest of men announcing that his Nirvâna was near at hand.
82. To comfort so inconceivably many kotis of living beings the king of kings said: 'Be not afraid, O monks; after my Nirvâna there shall be another Buddha.
83. 'The wise Bodhisattva Srîgarbha, after finishing his course in faultless knowledge, shall reach highest, supreme enlightenment, and become a Gina under the name of Vimalâgranetra.'
84. That very night, in the middle watch, he met complete extinction, like a lamp when the cause (of its burning) is exhausted. His relics were distributed, and of his Stûpas there was an infinite number of myriads of kotis.
85. The monks and nuns at the time being, who strove after supreme, highest enlightenment, numerous as sand of the Ganges, applied themselves to the commandment of the Sugata.
86. And the monk who then was the preacher of the law and the keeper of the law, Varaprabha, expounded for fully eighty intermediate kalpas the highest laws according to the commandment (of the Sugata).
87. He had eight hundred pupils, who all of them were by him brought to full development. They saw many kotis of Buddhas, great sages, whom they worshipped.
88. By following the regular course they became Buddhas in several spheres, and as they followed one another in immediate succession they successively foretold each other's future destiny to Buddhaship.
89. The last of these Buddhas following one another was Dîpankara. He, the supreme god of gods, honoured by crowds of sages, educated thousands of kotis of living beings.
90. Among the pupils of Varaprabha, the son of Gina, at the time of his teaching the law, was one slothful, covetous, greedy of gain and cleverness.
91. He was also excessively desirous of glory, but very fickle, so that the lessons dictated to him and his own reading faded from his memory as soon as learnt.
92. His name was Yasaskâma, by which he was known everywhere. By the accumulated merit of that good action, spotted as it was,
93. He propitiated thousands of kotis of Buddhas, whom he rendered ample honour. He went through the regular course of duties and saw the present Buddha Sâkyasimha.
94. He shall be the last to reach superior enlightenment and become a Lord known by the family name of Maitreya, who shall educate thousands of kotis of creatures.
95. He who then, under the rule of the extinct Sugata, was so slothful, was thyself, and it was I who then was the preacher of the law.
96. As on seeing a foretoken of this kind I recognise a sign such as I have seen manifested of yore, therefore and on that account I know,
97. That decidedly the chief of Ginas, the supreme king of the Sâkyas, the All-seeing, who knows the highest truth, is about to pronounce the excellent Satra which I have heard before.
98. That very sign displayed at present is a proof of the skilfulness of the leaders; the Lion of the Sâkyas is to make an exhortation, to declare the fixed nature of the law.
99. Be well prepared and well minded; join your hands: he who is affectionate and merciful to the world is going to speak, is going to pour the endless rain of the law and refresh those that are waiting for enlightenment.
100. And if some should feel doubt, uncertainty, or misgiving in any respect, then the Wise One shall remove it for his children, the Bodhisattvas here striving after enlightenment.



"Kundalini cures you, she improves you, she bestows all the blissful things upon you. She takes 
you away from the worries of grosser level."
"The truth which can be actualized after Self-Realisation is that you are not this body, this mind, 
this conditioning from the past, this ego, these emotions, but that you are the Pure Spirit." 

-Shri Nirmala


Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi

Short Biography


“There can be no peace in the world until there is peace within”.

Born of a royal dynasty, as a child she conferred with Mahatma Gandhi while living in his ashram, became a medical student and freedom fighter, was an adored mother, grandmother, great-grandmother and the wife of a distinguished diplomat who himself was decorated by presidents of numerous countries and knighted by the Queen of England. Beyond all this, and once her daughters were grown and settled, she embarked on an even more extraordinary mission.
Shri Mataji was born to Christian parents in India. She knew from very early on that she had a unique spiritual gift which she felt should be made available to everyone. And so it was that in 1970 she founded Sahaja Yoga Meditation. She discovered a unique process of Self Realization through which people could easily achieve the peace of a true and lasting meditative state. She charged no money, insisting that Self Realization was everyone’s birthright, with no distinction of religion, race or social circumstance. She said, “There can be no peace in the world until there is peace within.”
For the next forty years, Shri Mataji continuously travelled the globe teaching meditation. She was a loved and loving spiritual leader, acclaimed public speaker, gentle guide, philanthropist, Nobel Peace Prize nominee and recipient of numerous awards and commendations worldwide. Extending her care and compassion ever further, she established a holistic health and research centre in Mumbai, a home for destitute women and children in Delhi and an international Music Academy in Vaitarna to promote classical music and arts.
Although at birth she was named Nirmala, meaning ‘Immaculate,’ she eventually came to be known as Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi - respected Mother.
Millions of people have learned how to awaken and benefit from their inner spiritual power through Sahaja Meditation. Meditation centres have been established in more than ninety-five countries, where volunteers teach her techniques free of charge.
Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi passed away peacefully on 23rd February, 2011 in Genoa, Italy, aged 87.
H.H. Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi is survived by her husband, Sir C.P. Srivastava, daughters Kalpana and Sadhana, grandchildren and great-grandchildren, and her worldwide family of thousands of followers. She was laid to rest in India. 






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become hippies again by growing hair. Keep your head cleaned at least once in a month. that is my request. Neither I can chastise you. I am also old man; you are young man!
-Swami Prabhupada

His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada (1896-1977) is widely regarded as the foremost Vedicscholar, translator, and teacher of the modern era. He is especially respected as the world's most prominent contemporary authority on bhakti-yoga, devotional service to the Supreme Person, Krishna, as taught by the ancient Vedic writings of India. He is also the founder-acharya of the International Society for Krishna Consciousness.
Srila Prabhupada, as he's known to his followers, translated and commented on over eighty volumes of the Vedas' most important sacred bhakti texts, including the Bhagavad-gita—a concise handbook for understanding the purpose and goal of human life—and the multi-volume Srimad-Bhagavatam—an epic biography of Krishna, Krishna's avatars, and His many devotees throughout the history of the universe.
Srila Prabhupada's spiritual master, Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakur, was the leading proponent of Krishna consciousness in India during the early part of the twentieth century. He specifically taught the philosophy of Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, the divine avatar who revived Krishna-bhakti all over India in the 1500s. When Srila Bhaktisiddhanta first met the young man later known as Srila Prabhupada - in Calcutta in 1922 - he urged him to preach Chaitanya Mahaprabhu's message of Krishna consciousness throughout the English-speaking world.
After forty years of struggling within India to carry out his guru's order, while maintaining family and business responsibilities, Srila Prabhupada boarded a steamship bound from Calcutta to New York City in 1965. At age sixty-nine, with forty rupees and a trunk of his Bhagavatam commentaries - the first ever in English - his aim was to introduce "India's message of peace and goodwill" to the western world. During the last twelve years of his life, Srila Prabhupada would inspire thousands of Westerners and Indians to devote their lives to Krishna consciousness, launching one of the fastest-growing spiritual movements in the history of the world. 
Many scholars and professors who met him and became familiar with his work continue to use Srila Prabhupada's books as standard university texts, and regard him as a genuine, realized, and scholarly teacher of bhakti. His books' authoritative yet down-to-earth presentations of the most complex spiritual subjects imaginable continue to transform countless lives. Those disenchanted with the downside of materialism, questioning their place in the universe, and seeking knowledge of God backed by philosophical depth—sometimes undetectable in their existing religious traditions—often express unexpected joy at discovering hope and happiness through studying Srila Prabhupada's clear and inviting presentation of Krishna's teachings on the fundamental nature of knowledge, reality, and existence.
With the help of his students, he founded the International Society for Krishna Consciousness (ISKCON). ISKCON is popularly known as the "Hare Krishna" movement, due to its members' widespread practice of chanting the Hare Krishna mantra in public. Srila Prabhupada intended ISKCON to facilitate the association and education of bhakti-yoga practitioners, and his followers continue to spread that mission.

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Ay, que reputacion!
y que mas te puedo decir culona con bigotes come pericos, masca conchas, amo a las cosas hermosaos  y soy superficial, eh interesadao, eh, oportunista  y soy la cosa mas hermosao de todos los universos y ser lindoa eh intelligente, honorable,  libre, y ser fuerte y no, mentir, y  no robar, y no matar, no, es un crimen tampoco.  y si en mis creencias religiosas eh decido ser vegetarianao,  No, tenerle miedo a dios a,  no creer en karma,  

No, creer, en la magia blanca, negra, o roja,  no apostar dinero en juegos, y no, creer, en ningún tipo de divinacion,  y, no, adorar o resarle  a imágenes,  no tomar alcohol o drogas,  y no tener sexo ni con mujeres ni con hombres animales o niños  y no masturbarme, eso no significa que no tenga sentimientos,  o que estoy amargadao o reprimida! y, mi choice de aver nacido una mujer humana. en la cultura latina, no es pecado, o una maldición. o un crimen punishable by rape, inprisoment, torture,  or death, soy un agelito de piel oscura y brillo muy bien, and I am priceless,  y huelo a ka, ka, ka, como tu beloved one, huelo a viento, y eso es paz, .. y si aprendí a limpiarme rábano con papel higiénico
y con agua, y con jabon. o con lo que sea, y no oler, a mierda, o, a, orines, porque soy creída, y fina, y desde ninia me ensañaron lo que es respetar a otra gente pobre o rica, blanca o negra, bruta, o no, y huelo a ka, ka, ka,   and that is success to me, y me muero chao, de la felicidad,  porque No. le tengo miedo a dios, y ya no me importa como se llama o como loa llamas, and that is success to me!


 No, voy a internarme en un convento, o, en un templo, o, en ashram. o, incresar con otros grupos relijiosos solo para que me den comida y un techo,  protecion, y, no voy,  aceptar programacion en la ya, no, creo mas,  para no tenerte miedo o  esconderme de ti y de tus amigoas, porque tienes mas dinero que yo, y mas educacion,  y mas palanca que yo, y un iphone,  y un truck, y una laptop with stolen software, that your mami and daddy bought you, gang bangger backstabber, viejitoa crack head wanna be,  culona flaca fea lambe huevas.

no, te voy a convencer que soy buena gente, y, no le voy ah, pedirle a una organisacion que me den el titulo de monja, o de monk, porque no soy monja, o, monk,  soy un angelito de piel oscura y brillo muy bien, eh, ilumino toda la creacion sin ningun esfuerzo,   y tienes mucha suerte porque  mi appellido es Piedad, y  si,  existe un dios a, y yo no soy dios,  y  dios es mi testigo,  y dios is infinitely merciful, righteous loving, kind, all embracing beautiful goddess, righteous loving peaceful, all knowing god beautiful god, thank you for you love! thank you for your infinite abundance and protection during last few moments on this earth.

  y pos si, por eso digo god bless America and  let freedom ring, let freedom ring,  Made In America,  por que bien se yo, que si estubiera en otros paises donde la mujeres  son discriminadaos, y sileciadas por tener una opinion diferente, ya estubiera presa, ejecutadao,  mas toturadao, violadao,  desaparecida o muerta porque soy una mujer latinoa who is in love with god, excuse my condition,  and yes, I love the United States of America, and  I am appreciative to be a US citizen at this time in this last few moments on this earth!

Thank you for letting me be untouchable magnetic service, y me muero chao de la felicidad,  y alegría  porque si, amo a la vida eh intiendo la muerte,  y no me voy a suicidar o crear oops un acidente porque la vida es linda, y amo a la vida a mi manera especial, y jamas me voy a dejar bulliar de nadie, porque tienes dinero, o porque tienes propiedades, o  un titulo, y sabes escribir bien, y sabes leer bien, y sabes calcular bien el dinero,  guache mujer hombre,   jamas me vuelvas amenasar mugroso pendejo, mocosoa infantil  abusadorao de poder, ay, que pena que vergüenza, realmente me importa lo que inventas de mi, y lo que opinas de mi, no. se te olvide, no existo, valla, valla, realmente me importa , tus observaciones basados en tu glass pipe, rockero professional wanna be baa, y, si, soy, roca, y si soy, tierra firme, tierra linda, divina madre gracias por quererme tal somos, drogadictos, o, no,  alcohólicos o, no,  que buenas suerte tienes rockero chiviadao, que después de muertos nos seguimos amando!

cobarde vieja chismosa no intentes experimentar conmigo, ni con mi cuerpo, y , no,  se te atrevas a meterte con mi sacrada familia, porque son nobles, y son pura raza, honorables y benditos,  putaos o, no, maricas o no, ignorantes, o, no,  y no te atrevas a  levantar cargos falsos encontra de meow, o de ellos, meow, porque aunque nacimos en Colombia, meow, nunca hemos traficado drogas, o le hemos robado a nadie, o, a este pais, viva, Colombia!que viva! porque gustarle a uno trabajar no es pecado, y tampoco es pecado no poder trabajar mas. 

 acuérdate smelly  mujer y hombre gordao pelo seco  wanna Ronald Mcdonald prostitute pagadao, bully,  yo no tengo enemigos, y estoy rodeada de angeles, y soy hermosa,  y lo reconozco,   y ya deja a mis amigaos en paz, y para de hakear sus cuentas, para a ver si conocemos a Oprah Windfrey, o ah Madonna Pastor y a su marido, por que, No!  la conocemos gran bobo con baba de panocha y, y si la conociera nunca te la introducía backstabbing lambe jundillo de hombres,  spicy doggie dropping , I am the shit and I know how to clean my own ass! no, hay mas secretos, y no soy un cobarde como tu, y ni soy, two faced like tu papa, y tu,  mama que te enseñaron a mentir,  y hacer cut throat, por dinero y popularidad,  y amo y respecto a la ley!

Que bien que ya reconoces que soy mejor artista and non-violent, and money does not govern my life,  and I am the coolest, and we know it,  que suerte tienes que se muy bien que soy la que creo mi realidad, y me lo invento todo, and I learned a lot, and I am that I am that I am.

 something amazing is happening to me and to the entire human race, something extraordinary is happening to me and to all of god's creatures, and I am beside myself beloved divine  mother thank you for loving me  no matter what I do or say, feel, or think,  thank you for loving me exactly as I am beloved divine  father thank you, radiant, mysterious nameless, numberless all embracing god forgiving, compassionate, sweet innocent powerful all  seeing, all hearing, all being awesome god, coolest god,  thank you for taking away all the bitterness and replacing it with infinite sweetness! your lucky I am straight and I have the freedom to express myself! y  lo sabes muy bien essay,  

I am simply beautiful, I am your guardian angel bodhissatva mahassatva infinite lotus 666

love and light,

 and so it is!




Goddess grant me the serenity to embrace myself completely in every moment
the Courage to love myself more, No matter, what I do, say, feel, smell, hear, see, taste, or think
and the Wisdom to  understand myself and the Realization to know That I am That I am That I am  enlightened rightnow.  and that there is no place, people, or things that can ever separate me from the infinite harmony, compassion, and  Love of you. Living One Moment at a time, enjoying One Moment At a time. I am absolutely happy@ My Sacred heart
And So it Is...



 Hare Krishna beliefs can be summarized as follows:
1. By sincerely cultivating true spiritual science, we can be free from anxiety and come to a state of pure, unending, blissful consciousness in this lifetime.
2. We are not our bodies but eternal, spirit souls, parts and parcels of God (Krishna). As such, we are all brothers, and Krishna is ultimately our common father. We accept the process of transmigration of the soul (reincarnation).
3. Krishna is eternal, all-knowing, omnipresent, all-powerful, and all-attractive. He is the seed-giving father of all living beings, and He is the sustaining energy of the entire cosmic creation. He is the same God as The Father Allah, Sata Nama, Buddha, Jehovah, Yahweh, Ibi-Uru and the sun Jesus Christ.
4. The Absolute Truth is contained in the Vedas, the oldest scriptures in the world. The essence of the Vedas is found in the Bhagavad-gita, a literal record of Krishna's words.
5. One can learn the Vedic knowledge from a genuine spiritual master -- one who has no selfish motives and whose mind is firmly fixed on Krishna.
6. Before one eats, one offers to the Lord (Krishna) the food that sustains all humans; then Krishna becomes the offering and purifies the offered.
7. One performs all actions as offerings to Krishna and does nothing for one's own sense gratification.
8. The recommended means for achieving the mature stage of love of God in this age of Kali, or quarrel, is to chant the holy names of the Lord. The easiest method for most people is to chant the Hare Krishna mantra: Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare.



Sarve’tra sukhinah santu Sarve santu niramayah Sarve bhadrani pashyantu Maa kaschit dukhamapnuyat
May everyone in the world be happy. May everyone be healthy. May all experience what is good. May there be no suffering.


Tamaso ma jyotir gamaya Mrityor ma amrtm gamaya

May God lead us from the unreal to the real, From darkness to light, From death to immortality.

**********

Om Shanti Shanti Shanti.

Peace, peace, peace be with all.
-Satsang mantras





I am absolutely happy! I am pure divine love!
I am truth!
I am freedom!
I am healthy!
I am perfect and flawless!
I am effortless bliss!
I am beautiful!
I am strong!
I am infinite!
I am complete!
I love myself very much!
I love Life!
I love you!


"I am Manifest Divinity, Unmanifest Divinity, and Transcendent Divinity. I am Brahma,Vishnu and Shiva, as well as Saraswati, Lakshmi and Parvati. I am the Sun and I am the Stars, and I am also the Moon. I am all animals and birds, and I am the outcaste as well, and the thief. I am the low person of dreadful deeds, and the great person of excellent deeds. I am Female, I am Male in the form of Shiva"

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Shareable - able by nature to be distributable.., in the psychological sense - an emotion which could be shared 'non-destructively' as in perhaps a very universal perspective, and in the related physical sense a wave form which by it's nature could be passed without resistance among all the rest of the waves of the universe... in essence: pure symmetry. Note this requirement to reach essence and shareability seems to imply necessarily: perfect compressibility!

Anu - ultimate subatomic particle, depicted originally clairvoyantly in theosophy, (a 5 spin inside, 7 spin outside perfect little heart shaped 'slip knot") latter seemingly justified to current subatomic physics in Phillips work: www.SMPhillips.8m.com , morphically resonant (identical?) to human heart, and heart of the sun PURE SHAPE.
Slipknot - knot theory becomes consciousness theory as recursion learns to hold a wave shape.. "Kauffman" work Univ Chicago,etc. Essentially if you can see the wave shape as a boy scout variety sustainable slip knot, chances are you have the chutzpah to do it with the ethers in your heart to so create matter out of light: "slip (k)not cosmic donut maker". (Most people know what a slip knot is, however knot theory becomes profound pure wave principle of creation when we understand that this is how waves get enough of themselves going into rotation to store inertia - the ONLY way to CREATE mass... or ANYthing!).
Morphic- Resonance- Resonance or information inertia transfer among wave systems which is enabled principly or purely by SIMILARITY OF SHAPE ALONE.. (Made famous by Rupert Sheldrake, etc.). For example there is good physics to the witch creating the right kind of doll to effect a human of the same shape. Or a zodiac map of Orion having the shape of major architecture on Giza, causing a bleed thru of powerful energy.. (across spectra.).
Sub atomic level - smaller than atoms. (Referring mostly in sacred geometry studies to pure geometric models of the symmetries which link bosons - items inside the nucleus. Chemist Moon for example at Univ. Chicago showing the parts inside the nucleus arrange themselves like the platonic solids, even like the shells of the electrons...)
Fusion - point at which many waves can come to phase lock at one "node" / foci. There ALL is sorted. The potential to gather more than 3 oscillating wave systems up to infinite numbers come to ONE point - perfect FUSION - seems to depend on PHI / Golden Ratio wave ratios.
Genetic Memory - In sacred geometrics here, emphasis is on memory in genes as storeable BECAUSE fusion / implosion in DNA 'dodecahedral' perfect Golden Mean PACKING, creates VERY SHAREABLE WAVES. Think of a lightning bolt down the center zipper of blissful / ensouled genetic material able to keep constant modem contact with the morphic resonance of the whole genome central internet library. Perfect relaxion into embedding yielding hi 'baud' (info density transfer) rate to collective mind.
Squeeze - dynamics of all wave systems (all creation), seems to be rigorously describeable as pressure changes in a unversal 'jello' (ether). So how the pattern of "good squeezins" among those waves becomes cookbook to create ANYTHING. Examples: emotion is shape of hug / squeeze . Voltage is another name for pressure/tension electrically - the squeeze. Surviving death or black hole insertion or time travel seems to be simply arranging your wave to be able to survive squeezing with no destruction .. (see also 'scale invariance', & ../scaleinvariant ). Key implication here: WHY is shared compassion IDENTICAL to perfect compression.
Sustainable Wave - patterns among waves (in other words everything that is), which by virtue of symmetry - keep on waving / last forever. Sustainability in architecture for example, ultimately is a pure symmetry issue of how to make ALL structural interference NON-destructive. (Clearly points to self-embedding as the ONLY way archtecture OR data EVER become perfectly compressible and THEREFORE sustainable.)
Charge Radiant - when the emission path for charge or capacitance (or sound or light or.... any spectra).. look like the Sufi heart within heart with wings (see animation), the radiance of that charge can continue forever with no inherent resistance. Acheiving this 'perfect INSIDE is the OUTSIDE', as the mechanism of bliss, is a teachable SYMMETRY skill in how the heart learns to shape it's field. Here fabricating perfect IMPLOSION makes a fire that consumes only what is NOT shareable, and becomes the PHIRE mind 'inhabits'. When you see someone radiant, think: 'was it great caring about others' that lit the fire which sustained itself? How is the electrical solution to radiance the SAME as the psychological one?
To Inhabit: To RECURrently reenter as a wave. "Breath" of el-eye-PHI. (Similar to - to be able to self refer and thus recur.)
Ensoulment - in my view, clearly DNA makes a worm thru light speed up its core zipper. This is an important descriptor of whether memory will survive death, or dream entry, or shamanic journey. I believe soon we will understand a relationship between implosion hygiene in DNA that knows bliss, and what creates that connection to lightning's wormhole, and what religion calls SOUL. (really means: SOL - as in - having the GENETIC means to inhabit the SUN.)
Penetrate Stars - The same symmetry cookbook for waves getting 'screwed in right' to go thru stars, which were the glyphs in STARGATE movie, are the true Enochian alphabet. The gravity furnace in star cores is the only effective star entry slingshot available for gene/gland magnetics gone faster than light (souls). Once we know perfect recursion/embedding solves Einstein's dilemna of perfect implosion, we shall have the map to all heart's of gravity. Recommend keyword search on 'landscape zodiac' for examples of how star penetration is aided by magnetic maps on the land - sacred space as morphicly universal / archtypal.
Phonon Ponytail - when sound travels in liquid it is call a phonon wave. When the heart sounds trails thru living cells it leaves eddy's in the liquid current which are literally the decision tree for DNA braiding.. which looks like a loving pony tail, when there is love. DNA's decision tree selecting which codons get access to replicate, is therefore literally a (n emotional) matter of the HEART! Morphology - SHAPE ology. Morph also means to CHANGE shape.. shape 'shifting'. In our unified field cosmology we say since everything is made of the same universal substance, SHAPE (morphology) is the ONLY thing we have EVER had the privelege of NAMING. (Important to remember when you start understanding how the hearts philosopher's stone turns other atoms into gold. / biological transmutation is at heart limited only by the steerage INTENTION provides to waves!)
Vorticity - The study of what happens to all waves shortly after you pull the plug in your bathtub: a vortex forms. The shape of where each molecule goes in a path down the vortex throat is a rich study in ' how vorticity TRANSLATES movement' from a line in one plane to a circle in a perpendicular one. The perfect way to do this is GOLDEN MEAN ("yellow brick road to oz") and in my view originates the fine structure constant. Unpacking - only certain shapes can unfold perfectly forever - consult a rose for details, then steer your heart accordingly?
Gene Pools - Everyone into the POOL, the water's fine. The ocean accepts all rivers, but sets the final level. Because DNA is so implosive, it operates informationally within planetary gravity bubbles like ours, from a common library core. This is particularly true when enough relaxation happens to embed and ground.
Fractality - Amount of self-similarity. When the pattern inside is self similar to the pattern outside. Then the pattern can RECUR and recur and recur. Example: heart within heart valentine eternal zoom. Example 2: Fern tree looks like 1 branch looks like 1 leaf looks like 1 leaf tip, looks like....
Compassion / Compression - Getting the information pattern of a feeling outside your body to share a space non-destructively with an electrical feeling INSIDE your body, becomes ultimately (& 'topologically inside out'), a simple problem of perfect COMPRESSION. It is thrilling that we can now TEACH that - when HEART harmonics create the 'embedable' Golden Mean harmonics at BLISS / compassion moments!
Coherence - In a laser, when the light waves all get 'columnated' like soldiers walking in step. Makes them more able to travel further together since they lose less 'spin' on the way. Heart's get electrically COHERENT when emotion gets COHERENT. Heart feedback (2nd order frequency signatures) measure and teach this skill. ('Little Johnny you stay in the corner until your heart harmonic shows you have become coherent - emotionally intelligent- again' ) discussion:
Chaos - what happens when waves have no boundary conditions. (disorder / opposite of awareness / unable to recur). Versus:
Fractality - what happens when waves survive the ultimate boundary condition - infinite compression. (same as awareness / able to recur).
"Blue fire": the collected cellular accumulations of coherent ultra-violet or blue light. Because this blue light drives DNA and mediates the most orderly metabolism, it is in a sense an ultimate product of cell biology. When gathered among glands for whole body process or massage, this blue fire becomes the stuff of eros, orgone, and sexuality. Attention/ foreplay/ massage gathers it like a snake charmed, first to the glands around the base of the spine, the so called "blue dish" . Then, if the base of the spine is open, and properly tilted, and if the heart and gland sonics are massaging the envelope sonically, they can be pumped up the spine like a straw, exploding sweetness and growth into the upper brain and crown chakra. In addition to a sweet reward natural feedback, this precipitates a field which feeds coherent nutrient to the larger Earth grid..
Braiding: in the sense of your lovers pony tail, only certain wave(weave)lengths will fit upon the length of the tail compared to the number of hairs. If the number of weaves fit the nest, then you may be able to braid the braid... of the braid. Each time a much longer wave is nested in a disciplined or "phase locked" fashion. On biological surfaces, this means that the information of worlds of much larger size can reach their inertia into the biology which has found a way to integrate or contain wavelengths the size of... whole glands or even continents.. into living cells. This is how emotions program DNA, and even Schumann resonance Earth waves get into trees, informing Earth's biomass of the needs of Earth as a ringing bell inviting tuning.
Ecstatic process: any activity centering mind into body and perception in such a way as to bring all awareness into the present. This results in a concentric wave nesting of the "fractal attractor" of attention. This phase locks or brings to focus at one point, waves of increasing cascades of different length. In quantum or wave terms, this engages the principle of self-organization among pressure waves which occurs whenever they are brought to focus. This is because in wave interference patterns drawn to the focal point attracted by symmetry, order self replicates, and disorder SELF-destructs. Ecstatic process uses the activities of symmetry making in the geometry of awareness, to get attention/awareness so focused or phase locked that worlds within worlds of wave length and "embodiment" converge to share inertia or mind. The symmetry or pattern making activity necessary to attract this critical "mass" of awareness or wave front centers is enacted in the human condition on rollercoasters, in dance and ritual, in sexuality, tantra and kundalini, etc. When we get a handle on the inertia centers of wave fields of increasing size, we can make our feelings felt in larger worlds. The wave geometry or shape of feelings, thus get leverage eventually upon whole bioregions, planets, ... longer waves. When we attempt to gain this symmetry making power among waves externally by adding symmetry to synapse withchemically induced ecstatcy we make certain sacrifices. Unable to fabricate our own ecstacy, we induce a fraction of the chemistry which normally just mediates instead of induces the superconduction in the brain. Brain coherence without the resonance linkage and pure intention to the larger mind, is like a top spun up without first balancing the spin point. Only the heart has enough symmetry to lock/touch the pressures and prepare the field. Human cells, and human cultures cannot survive without the informing context of disciplined ecstatic process. Formerly ecstacy was taught only by religion and cults. Now, as cancer and AIDS spread exactly where cultural ecstacy and ritual are forgotten, we must teach this outer and inner spiritual dance because the lives of our children depend on it.
Coherence: (Co-here-and-see). and coherent emotion. Same meaning in math, in hydronamics (wave theory), and in poetry: all the meanings or waves fit one nest in order. Suggestive of columnation, cascading, phase locking or phase discipline. Onset coherence in light is a laser, in emotion is a piezoelectric glandular mediated real felt motion ready to waltz up and down the ladder of wave ratio between worlds. There is a relationship between the poetic, the optical, the mathematical definitions of coherence. Further, it suggests our new technique of second order FFT (frequency signature OF the frequency signature), as a powerful way to access, measure, quantify, feedback, and teach COHERENCE. Consider the heart's distribution of voltage waves as if it were a simple light beam trying hard to become so powerful as to be worthy to be called "a laser". Then our question about measuring heart coherence becomes the same one as a laser optics physicist attempting to predict themoment at which a light beam became "coherent" enough to penentrate distances like a laser. The internal "coherence" or columnation of phases within the single beam would determine how penetrating was that beam.
So too with the heart. We know that the heart electricities effect the immune system and the environment. Therefore the more sustainable these heart "waves", the more effective in bending their environment. So we need a way to teach people to make their heart "waves" sustainable, that is: able to reach further without collapsing as waves. We provide this "heartlink" as a tool to measure this "coherence", and feed it back in such a way as to make it teachable.
The first peak of the second order FFT clearly rises animatedly as a persons heart coherence or heart harmonics rise in the first fft. The key step in realizing the technical meaning of the word coherece, in this regard, is to understand that a SINGLE wave or parameter in a technical sense, does not HAVE coherence. Note below, in the physics literature: definition of coherence:
"Coherence--A mathematical algorithm expressing a quantitative measure of the spatial or temporal relationships between two or more parameters. Simple coherence is the ratio of the square of the absolute magnitude of the cross spectral density function between two parameters and the product of the power spectral densities for each individual parameter. (For a generalized definition of coherence, including multiple and partial coherence, see Goodman, 1965.)" TWO parameters usually are COMPARED to talk about coherence. So, we could not describe the ekg as a wave as having coherence IF we think of it as a single parameter. However, if we were to consider each of the sine waves arranged in the complex series we call the frequency signature or power spectra or FFT ( of the heart voltage) , THEN we could talk about the COHERENCE BETWEEN those internal harmonics. THIS is indeed what I believe this second order frequency plot (fft) does for the heartlink. Specifically, that the height or amplitude of the first peak of that plot, is a measure of whether those harmonics of the first FFT are evenly spaced (OR LITERALLY PHASE DISCIPLINED or coherent). What indeed is powerful here is that this technique of taking the second order FFT OF ANY OSCILLATOR , now can be understood as a way to quantify the INTERNAL harmonic COHERENCE OF ANY OSCILLATOR. What happens practically, is that the second FFT CHECKS to see if the space or PHASE between the harmonics of the first FFT are even or disciplined. If yes, then the amplitude of the first peak of the second FFT MEASURES THAT PHASE COHERENCE. In effect, this becomes an elegant tool to quantify and teach coherence.
Embedability (Idealized Recursion): The ability of a short wave to embed or nest non destructively in a larger one. Similar to Fractality. See how this is IMMERSIVE, in the sense it allows one biological oscillator to enter another. To begin the process is SELF RE-Entry, optimized by PHI, the Golden Mean..
Similar to : Wave geometry which can SURVIVE COMPRESSION NON-DESCTRUCTIVELY. This is a geometric wave picture of empathy and compassion. To Inhabit is to Embed, which is the same as "getting inside of" in order to steer. This empathic path actually starts with the electricity of the heart LEARNING TO MAKE THE FRACTAL WHICH STARTS WITH THE ELECTRICAL DIMPLING OR TURNING INSIDE OUT.
Fractal (fractality/fractal attractor): when the small part of a pattern contains a miniature of the whole pattern, it is said to be self-embedded, or recursive. This kind of symmetry among waves, permit the long, to cascade right into the same pattern in the short wave, creating a cascade or vortex or attractor. This IS Ability to Embed; EMBEDABILITY, which is the wave mechanic skill to center yourself in a wave form and steer it= TO INHABIT. (mathematically identical to compassion/empathy)
The self-sameness of the symmetry of the nucleus to the symmetry of the electron shell, for example permits the scalar spin vortex "translation of vorticity"(turning from long to short wave) we call gravity. The inertia which passes inside out through center, gives us identified in the wave lengths out here, the illusion that gravity's cascade goes only one way. In reality what has been folded inside out into finer order in the center of atoms and planets, in the unified field of gravity's wave cascade, becomes the bloodstream passed between planets in erotic play. This self-same scalar wave cascade "fractal attractor" by symmetry, also makes up the field nesting we call consciousness, which is born of and defined by recursion itself. The more we are occupied in our attention by the at-first-in-principle of self-embedded IAM THAT I AM, the more the fields of consciousness nest and are leveraged by our "mind". The purpose of the ONENESS when present in one node of the hologram, draws the inertia of all to it. Thus true power is self-limiting by pure intention (or symmetry) inside itself.
Fractionation: (as opposite of fractality): when the order of a complex woven kind of self organizing.. anything.. is chopped up into little pieces... which all the kings horses and all the kings men can't put back together again. Your best picture has no meaning when rendered into little pieces. How can we be nourished after we chop up all the order in our grains and vegetables before we consume them. The long wave order IS the food. Apple sauce has no tingle, only biting into the whole apple adds that kind of spin to you. Among waves, spin is the only catchment for memory. The context of the long wave is not present after the air or the water is passed through a screen or a sieve. It becomes fractionated, unbraided, and lifeless. Fractionation in cultures is called: a-part-meant, and it occurs when the long magnetic grid braids of earth are chopped up by cities where geomancy and grid engineering are unknown. The skin of Earth becomes cancerous this way. Geometry of Pressure: since the unified field tells us of only one essentially compressible medium, then the universe is literally one contiguous folded surface and a "geometry of pressure". Tesla called voltage simply tension or pressure. Electromagnetic voltage modulates the three other supposed "separate" and "fundamental" forces of physics. (Even gravity becomes magnetic in the monopole- cascade by ratio). We should not permit our physics to fractionate our awareness into the schizophrenia of imagining more than one substance to our universe. No data ever truly supported the hypothesis that more than one compressible unified field existed in the universe. We can see and feel that we the medium, are the message.
Grok: in the sci-fi sense of to encounter an idea, surround it with your beingness of attention, "consume it's perspective", and understand it all at once "of a piece".. this is the "long wave" way of knowing, as opposed to atomized, piecemeal, fractionated dissections of knowing.. short waves.
Inertia: the tendancy for movement to continue in its path. We measure the amount of inertia stored by waves when persuaded by symmetry to go in circles, and we call this mass or matter.
Lo-phi (love). When the nest of electrical and sound pressure fields around the heart converge in golden mean ratio wave nests, then unlimited information transfer between worlds can cascade. Waves find this arithmetic and geometric heterodyne or beat note non-interference pattern, most touch permissive. EL-(the turn or phase shift) (in)LO-(frequnecy)PHI-(ratio). The PHI or golden mean ratio has been found in the frequency between harmonics of the heart at the moment of sending love, and (in the "Sentics" measurements of emotion) in the ratio of the moment of maximum pressure in the shape of the hug or squeeze you give to send love. The soft V sound in love suggests the fiveness from whose square root PHI is derived, and from which the wave softness or touchability of love radiates.
Recursion/Embeddedness/ Fractality: Suppose a short little wave would like to nest cozily and non-destructively on a larger carrier wave. The ratio of that "embedding" or braiding of a short on long wave would be something like the Phi-lotactic branching algorhythmn of tree ness. In fact the first fractals looked like fern trees. The ratio of a short wave which can best embed on a long is in Phi or Golden Mean proportion. This is the best nesting algorhythmn for waves to share spin non-destructively. In a computer program, a "do loop" which can nest inside another, inside another, infinitely, could produce infinite recursion, or self-iteration. Irving Dardik calls this expression of a turn inside a turn: "super-looping". In a geometric sense when pattern or foldedness can nest inside itself layer in layer, this becomes the fingerprint of fractality.
Non-Destructive Interference: As all waves or frequencies cross each other in the universe, they are not just ships passing in the night. Each time they truly cross paths and "share spin", they have kids. The making of children among waves is called (appropriately) "conjugal" relations. This means they coming into the touch or focus point for two waves, creates a continuous SYSTEM of interference. This is called "heterodyning" or beat note interference. What's neat is that each time waves do this crossing and touching, they must ADD each others wave lengths repeatedly, if the wave lengths of those children waves is to still fit the pattern of the wave nest and not fight. When the continuous repeated adding of the wave lengths is RECURSIVE (able to always RECUR), this effectively means that in addition to adding each others wave lengths (AND velocities), that the waves begin to both ADD AND MULTIPLY each other AT THE SAME TIME. This produces the perfection of this EMBEDDING OR NESTING, which is a BRANCHING PATTERN which is repeatedly PENT (re-pents), in all PHI RATIO. This PERFECT BRANCHING in all PHI ratio in NATURE is called "PHI-llotaxis, and it the way leaves unfold in plants based on the GOLDEN MEAN, to PERFECTLY SHARE the light. (Later this branch was called SCION, or the Priori de scion.. jon, john.. perfect branching in the blood). So as all waves pack, they must arrange themselves into a symmetry (a pattern) where their inertia, their "nodes" do not cancel each other. In order to get the maximum number of wave nodes or peaks "nested" in ALL CONSTRUCTIVE interference, branching by GOLDEN MEAN ratio- ELIMINATES DESTRUCTIVE ADDING AND MULTIPLYING OF THOSE WAVES. The result is "in-PHI-knit" all CONSTRUCTIVE interference which in the long wave phi ratio (lo-phi wave) is CALLED: "permission to touch" for waves! Note that the wave form for love on the HeartLink and in the Sentic music literature appears to both use the GOLDEN RATIO interval.
Recursive or recursion: (see also non-destructive wave interference): When any system or wave is taught to re-enter itself in such a way that it keeps coming back to the same center point, that steerage for spin pattern, is said to be "able to recur". Thing of the little bit of magnetism coming out the top of your heart like a squeezed beet. When the magnetic squirt gun learns how to send the head of it's energy worm back down around the vortex donut in such a way that it is never lost on the spin path back into itself, it is then "self-embedded", or RECURSIVE. (See ANU/Heart/Heart of Sun 7/5 spin perfect implosion slop knot clairvoyance maps
This in-side out skill to steer a wave back into itself is also called SELF-reference. This is the wave geometry of self awareness. A golden mean spiral is the only way a wave can re-enter ITSELF non-destructively. So to re-cur and thus self-reenter self-aware, is the skill to make magnetism squirt into that perfect GOLDEN MEAN valentine.. the EM(bed)PATH.
Self-Not/Self: Has been used to describe the membrane of separateness or the cell wall or the human skin, which make up the immune system. As a wave mechanic, all dividing membranes are comprised of woven fields whose phase coherence or wave order determines how long till the bubble pops. Add spin and you add life to the bubble. The index to which spins can be added to the surface of a bubble, is which spins can be supoerposed on the surface of symmetry itself. Forests get a sonic skin when the bioacoustic habitat contains ALL frequencies. Emotions missing from the spectra of the cell membranes surface, tell us which wave length doorways are unlocked in the self-not self.
The Mathematical name for the principle that cell membrances are composed of only the waves which "make music"/phase lock, together, is called "Structural Stability and Morphogenesis". In human terms this means that membranes- self/not-self are neat woven blankets which occur when the waves of emotion/feeling nest in harmony. Practically, this means that if there is one harmonic missing from your voice ("Signature Sound Works"), or one harmonic missing from your brainwaves (Marty Wuttke/the end of addiction), or one emotion missing from your choice of what you can FEEL, then there is a hole in your blanket, or rather, cell membrance.
Self-Reference/Self-Awareness: You were getting angry, then you became aware, that you were AWARE you were getting angry... then you became aware that you were aware that you were aware.... you were getting angry. Each time you got outside youself to look at your self, you got more perspective or context in your understanding of your own anger. As a result you had more ability to steer the direction of your emotion with a large horizon of awareness. The only angle at which a wave can re-enter itself or refer to itself non-destructively is the phi spiral. This then is the optimal geometry of self reference or self awareness. It becomes measureable in the magnetic angle of the hearts "wings" at the moment of compassion or embedding. It becomes evident in the PHI harmonics of the brain and heart at the moments of peak awareness. 




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